Diary

yo world so i gotta admit i aint fuck wit Wale at first but after listenin to his cd im fuckin wit cuzzin @ first i thought this cd was gon be all about the city and how he from the city but it filled with real shit and today i popped the cd in and went to my favorite songs from the CD...but one im feelin today is Diary ft. Marsha Ambrosius. IDK if you ever heard it but the audio is posted below for your listening enjoyment and sum lyrics that i like from the song are listed to and a link to download the Wale CD Attention Deficit.

If I told you I wanted to talk to you, you know
you'd think I'm tryin' to holler at you
And maybe I am, but you wouldn't hear me out anyways would you?

Rather lose love than to move on never knowin' what it feels like
Short days, long nights by the phone, no call
Need a clear mind cuz I been blind got me goin down that road
Heart made of stone
Far away from home,
Black woman c-c-cold
Every problem that you ever had with another man, i gotta face
Started off on thin ice i'm still here but i can't skate
Slow sink, can't breathe
No remorse, don't think
Listen to your friend,
Get another man for a minute then repeat
Queen,
You deserve the title
But she rejects what i give
While she nurse the wounds by them
Tried them, didn't work
Got impossible standards,
Nothin' I do's gonna work
Diary of a black girl
Fuck wit this first verse so hard i hope yall read and see...

But please know i got sunshine on a rainy day and sticks and stones may break my bones but words, niggas, haters, and bitches dont hurt me

but dey can either love me or leave me alone but either way ima be a problem for yall

while i sing bitches aint shit bitches aint shit dey b on knees suckin all dez niggas dicks...

well...mine first lol

-Alley E
here's the link to download the whole CD
http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=ca34db4b1b0d36d8a0f2f20c509059d999e9941c 74098f9ca7b01fe6e4055ae3

U ever get the feeling...?

Yo world sumtimes wen i look at things in my life i sumtimes get the feelings lik ive been gettin doped and tricked alot. I normally am not that quick to believe things until ive heard from mutiple sources that are reliable. I typically feel lik people see as me as someone im not. people call me popular i consider myself a loaner. some people swear i dig gurls out all da time but i was raised but a woman dat aint me. wateva people may believe about me a lot of times people underestimate da lil people who really fuck wit hard and kno people. Theres a sayin that i lik its...

"All things down in the dark shall come to the light"

One thing i believe about myself is that i can keep it 100. Alot of people fuck wit me cuz i keep it 100. Not everybody agrees wit how i feel but they can understand it. I respect people that keep it 100. People lik that get the best of me. And ive always been the type of person that if i fuck wit u hard den if im eatin everybody eatin. Jus the way i am. Anybody dat know me kno that if i got it dey got it to. Im not sweet for it neither so dont think that at all but if u need me to get u out da way i do dat. Sumtimes people take my kindness for a weakness and try me. I can tell u now that's not a gud idea, never has been and never will be. Sometimes i wonder how my life got the way it did. Not complainin but thats jus the way it is. My childhood was the best. MY high school days were good i wuldnt change too much but a couple thangs. but u cant live wit regrets i guess so fuck it. Nowadays i wuld change alot fareal nd i hate that i have to say that but i would. I hada talk wit one of my x's da ova day she told me that im a one of a kind person and to be wit me you gotta be a one and a kind gurl. She said she knows she isnt her cuz she cant handle the lifestyle i live. Very fast paced and alot of attention. She said the gurl who does get me whoa to her and a hats off...i laughed about it cuz i kind see it as true. I have a different mind as i like to believe then most. I can look past alot of things n bring the gud out of sumbody. Even though sum of my x's blow me i fuck wit em hard, cuz dey all kno me well. Each in they own special way. Wen i need sumthang i always kno i can call on em. A lot of yall looked out for me this summer wen i anigga aint have a job and sumtimes a place to stay well jus one but naw mean. but with each of them i culd feel where they let me down. Each one worse den the other but still yall get love from me. Even though naw yall fuck wit the skeeches that use to occupy yall nite ime lol but yall still fuck wit me. Seem lik no matter how wrong i did yall yall still had my back. alot of yall got my highest honor. ecept a few some of yall can eat a AIDS dick. but sumtimes i listen to what people tell me cuz i know one thing if i dont kno anythang else...and that is people talk. But if u dont give em sumthang to talk bout den ur jus another person dey kno. And people are famous for word of mouth, so wen i do say thing to sumbody please kno that i kno more then you think i kno, i do my research and get facts(names, dates, how yall met, etc) I know u think im stupid but i was born at night not las nite nigga. But hey he got his stello back and he back lik he never left. pics from da club will be cummin soon to a facebook near you! lol

-alley E

Brush Your Teeth

Yo wats gud world I jus got off the fone wit my brotha, weneva im goin thru alot besides the L's we put up i lik talkin to my brotha cuz he put shit in perspective for me. I look up to my brother, both of em. Both them niggas is on dey shit one's graduated college and out here doin his thang trying branch out and leave the nest and my ova brotha man dat nigga 22 bout graduate this yr. Even though out the family its always been Vaugh with the ignorant jokes and comments that make sense so you cant be made at wahat he said, Mike the insightful deep thought nigga lol, and me the train wreck who makes all the messes and the older brothers gotta clean everythang up. He told me one thing that stuck to me lik a fly trap. He said that " No matter what you do, you can't make anyone love you, and you can love someone but not like them. People may say they love you but as soon as thangs go left niggas jump ship, people point fingers, people leave you behind, and people judge every move you make. He told me you shuld never let people get you worked up, cuz anger and being upset is a waste of energy and he right. I been mad all day bout everythang goin on but i did a have a good hour or two where i did laugh and joke around and time flew by and i felt different. He said you jus ignore the dumb shit and the dumb shit people do and say cuz nuffin makes someone more mad then wen you ignore there attempts to bring you down to there level. Im on the right path cuz here i am in skool, workin, and livin my life. I stop for nuffin and my brotha said he kno me better den that and want me to get back up on my shit. both my brothas are disappointed i let all this dumb ass shit with other people get me bent outta shape...niggas die, bitches cry, niggas lie, bitches lie thats jus how the story goes, but tell em kiss the babies and swallow slow...Fuck yall niggas tryin bring a nigga down and the niggas who aint helpin my situation. But where casting for the "Alley E Show" we hada cut sum more cast memebers and were lookin for replacements smell me lol awww man my life your entertainment, so leme give yall some more to look and read about.
-Alley E
I brushed my teeth for these hoes n niggas so they can see my smile!

Family affair

As i look thru the pictures of all the days where we could jus chill up in da alley smoke tree n drink 38 till we throw up over and over again...I sit here and think about every nigga i ever lost.

Amp: 36th n minnesota I remember the first day i meet you cuz. Remember we was behind the laundry mat up 19th, and we hit dat L together? Had me gone off that shit. I was a young nigga at that time too that was 07 son, crzy right? I lost you in 08 never forget wen black hit my fone and said some coward ass niggas took your life son...

Phil: 19th n minnesota son how many days was we goin at it? everytime we saw each ova we argued...Who get the most bitches? who got more bodies? man who fresher? Damn son we wasnt even all dat close but i fuck wit you hard. Rememeber dem niggas try fake on lil travis b4 he got locked up? Remember how you had dat nigga back and you jus met dat nigga lik a couple hrs b4? u a trill ass nigga n i fuck wit you bayboy.

Song: Bday buddy forever! born the same day i rememeber wen u sent me that friend request after i met you at the gogo cuz you dont give your number out unless its business rite? lol man you kill me rememeber the bday freestyles hada do it bigga each yr. You showed these bitches how to be a lady and how to carry urself in the gogo. I thank you for dat babygurl we love you and miss you. I rode past where them niggas crashed your shit n took you away from us....damn i still cant believe you gone.

Adrian: Young Money nigga dont play that! Real ass nigga son i rememeber the first day we meet up high school. Swear you was a man of few words but wen u did speak it was important as fuck dog. You was a baller and i respected dat. Even though we aint always see eye to eye we still did our thang. Remember the 06 tunnel days back wen mob was runnin shit? tob first came out n i use to stay sayin I"M TRYIN BOUNCE SOMETHING! n "AWW SHIT". Remember how dis bitches use to go for all us? We was wasted every weekend in fuckin da gogo up as long as you was feelin gud enuff to go. I cried hard as fuck at your funneral son.

Each and everyone of yall i miss yall crazy i aint gon sit here n rant for every nigga i ever lost but the ones i miss most watch down on me and keep me from harms way ya'll. I love yall and ima make yall proud i guess you can say i miss yall a lil bit...I miss u a lil bit more everyday.

Love yall niggas

-Alley E

Funny to me LOL

We Ballin Bitches Eatin yall food leavin dishes LOL...

Hater by Jay Z ft. Kanye West

-Alley E

Say Whats Real

So as im sittin here replaying my life in my head everythang i remember what made me and broke me what things made me laugh, sad, happy, etc. I talked to one of my friends da ova day who told me i wear my emtions on my sleeve. She said told me when im upset its pretty obvious cuz im realy standoffish and i always have this look that jus reads fuck off. But they can always tell wen im in a good mood cuz i smile. The funny thing was that her and some ova people were talking and dey asked her y i dont smile, i didnt really like her answer but i guess mayb thats true. she said "his smiles are like a orange moon if u dont catch this one you'll be waiting for awhile before the next one." After us talkin bout me for hours and anyone who knows me knows i dont lik to discuss what im doin, ill update you plz dont ask ur own questions cuz i hate explainin myself. I dont think people will see eye to eye with me, i like being my own person and being one of a kind. I really do feel like im one of a kind. Nobody else is lik me, and i pride myself on that. Well im still loudpacked up and ready for class but i just wanted to get this up before class. Through everythang in my life ive had some real bad and real good as times, the point of this post is to appreciate the things that come and go in your life, but never miss oppurtunities. Cuz u never know what could be n you fail 100% of the time you dont try and yea im trying be successful and i got a list of shit to get done and im checkin something off everyday and look out for a life changing post (for me) if everythang falls thru as i need it to there mayb a new location that alley E will be posting from. I hope it comes through cuz a nigga needa get the fuck outta dodge!

-Alley E

pumpkin eater

Ima start this quote with one of the funniest things i heard today...its a dirty joke tho so dont be offended and if u r...

O Well...

Fuck You...

"A man who never wears pants can never be caught with his pants down."

So im feelin pretty gud today, im flying with pigeons so im on cloud 9 loudpackin lik 212's.

I have had this question in my head all weekend n all week...

"what makes people cheat?"

Wen i was cummin up in the game i use to cheat lik no tommorow but den i stopped but wen i was doin it i wuld always tell gurls u dont wana b wit me u shuld rethink ur priorities if u think u wana b wit me lol...

i knew i was bad news wen i got that first piece of ass from my 1st.

But fareal if i felt lik i aint wan b wit sum1 i wuld constantly let em kno but if i said i really liked sum1 not jus during sex but fareal outside of bedroom n im not tryin knock boots wit her i ment it. My man was talkin to me bout his x who cheated on him and its almost a yr ago they was together for lik 3 yrs it still cut him deep. Bitches played me too before i but i aint never really care but it still hurt my pride smell me. But that shit cut niggas deep n it cut gurls 1000x's worse. Jus curious, and even wen people start movin on people feel a certain way towards them. Shuld jus keep it 100 u neva kno how people gonna react but cheating ummm im pretty sure i still got sum in the chamber for both of em...

Kiss da babies wit dat shit...

-alley E

Carter Boy!!!!!

Yo world here is the trailer for the lil wayne documentary now to me it looks lik a bunch of clips of him talkin shit, blazin louud packs, n sippin lean...

where do i sign up? lol

O wait you thought this post was for you carter? naw not this time lol mayb next time lol

but before i go i said CARTER BOY!!!!

-Alley E

I mean...

I know it's been a while,
Sweetheart, we hard-ly talk, I was doing my thing
I know I was foul bay-bay,
A-bay late-ly you been all on my brain,
And if somebody would've told me a month ago
Fronting though, yo I wouldn't wanna know
If somebody would've told me a year ago
It'd go, get this difficult
Feeling like Katrina with no fema
Like Martin with no Gina
Like a flight with no visa
First class with the seat back I still see ya
In my past, you on the other side of the glass
Of my memory's museum,
I'm just saying, Hey Mona Lisa,
Come home you know you can't Rome without Caesar

Flashing Lights by Kanye West

Da craziest thing right now for me is where my mind is. My shit so fucked it dont make sense. I got alot on my brain and i really feel betrayed fareal. Sometimes i just wish I stayed to myself all my life. I cant stand when people be frontin in front of your face but be real secret and keep shit quite, and mislead people. ONE THING I CANT STAND IS WHEN PEOPLE DONT KEEP SHIT 100!!!! Lik if i feel that ur lying to me i probably wont trust you again. It seem lik the more people you meet the more faker mafuckas you meet. ITs funny cuz fakeness is a disease worse then swine flu, h1n1, nomonia, etc. all combined. People catch dat lik wildfire. Believe me if u wonderin in ya head if im talkin bout you...

YES I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm fareal mad and upset rite now, like when i read some shit i jus be like young you wonder y i dont answer your calls or texts? I was born at nite but it wasnt last nite. I try not to let others get me out my character but it be so hard not to kirk fareal. Especially people have no idea what to say to me nowadays cuz im completely on edge. Mafuckas thought i was a ticking time bomb before you dont even wana kno how im feelin rite now, im fareal liable to beat a nigga ass for askin me the time, while i got 4 watches and my cell phone in plain veiw. Man fuck mankind, dez bitches, n ya da mothers who birthed these cowards!

-Alley E

Trey Songs-Invented Sex

-Aye E

Sucker Free

"I cant promise that i'll change who i am but ill promise to become a better person"

This phrase sums up everythang im feelin right now. I look at myself and i kno im not perfect, sorry that im not. But in the bible it says "he who hath no sin cast the first stone." funny how alot of niggas still tryin sneak and throw stones, knowin dey got more sins den me. I kno what i am and what im not and i use to lose alot of sleep cuz i culdnt understand y people so quick to hang me for my mistakes and never acknowledge my good deeds. I guess what good you do is expected so people over look it and jus hold you to the wrongs you've comitted and its funny how they never let it go. Dont say you forgive someone if you really dont. but at the same time you cant hold a grudge cuz in the end you jus hurtin urself, wastin ur own energy. People hate to see you happy, and love to see you frown. I kno alot of people real happy wit me rite now cuz a nigga down and out but dont worry mafuckas im cummin back for the fisrt time lik ludacris and ima make sumthang happen. Funny thing is watch how mafuckas gon tryfuck wit me when im happy n doin good. Its always lik dat aint it people aint around during the storm but quick to fuck wit u on a sunny day. HAHAHAHA! Killin em softly is what ill do then. But i got a smile on my face though! So here i am world hate a nigga who livin his life!

"Shit I'm going through it, Ma dukes too, tears stramin down her pretty face she got her palms too it, my life is getting to wild, i needa bring some sort of calm too it, im bouta lose it, my niggas screamin dont do it"

This Cant be Life by Jay Z

-Aye E

Either Love Me or Leave Me Alone

While I'm watchin every nigga watchin me closely
my shit is butter for the bread they wanna toast me
I keep my head, both of them where they supposed to be
Hoes'll get you sidetracked then clap from closed feet

-Can I Live by Jay Z

I wish i could possibly write down exactly how i feel right now, i wish i could show you had bad it hurts. I've followed and tried to walk after you in pretty much aspect. I guess lik always i dont measure up too what you want me to be so u have no hope for me. Love clearly is blind, you cant really see the bad from a person until its pointed out to you. I try my best to be the best i can be but i know i fall short in a handful of things but its no reason to down me, or say i won't amount to much. In case you didnt know u did bring me to tears, as ashmed as i am to say it you did. I really cant understand people and how the human being works, probably never will =/. Unfortunatly when things get thick everythang else thats happens seems 100x's worse. But I told myself i'd keep looking at the glass hall full but now im thinkin ill look at the glass a quarter full. My mind is completely destroyed. Everythang i use to care about i don't care about anymore. I have hit a serious point of "who gives a fuck?" I hate that im here but i can't help but feel like that. Everybody always tells me you know i got your back E, or I'm here for you E. But I dont even listen when people say that too me. When people tell me they love me I typically dont reply cuz i dont feel like that many people truely love me. I feel as though they love who I am, or what i can do for them, or what i do for them. When people say i love you i kind of have make a "sure your right" face unintenally but its because i dont feel as though people know what that means. I actually prefer people to not say that to me. And if im not that close to you when you say it to me thats y i jus reply back "lol", but then again another reason y i dont believe in saying i love you, because jus because i make you laugh or cheer u up do you love me. People who are closer to me i have no problem asking them not to say that to me. I've truely stopped answering my fone today and yesterday. I accepted a few minor calls but that was only 3calls which where pretty important. Not speaking with people today actually made me feel better as my day went on. I try to keep my faith and not lose trust in the human race but i cant help but feel like "fuck ya'll." I've gotten alot of inspiration for my artwork since my mind isn't really focused on the things it should be. It kind of tickles me that the people who claim to know me, care about me, "love me" <----(LMMFAO) cant even see how dead i am inside. just because i'm breathing and walking doesnt mean im still alive inside. I really feel nuffin bout anythang I havent eaten but some mcdonalds today. I didnt smoke today either. I dont have the urge to do anythang. All my goals and aspirations have really become meaningless. I know this post is going to be followed by alot of "keep ya head up" response's and "i hop ethings get better for you" response's and etc. but im not tryin hear that. A couple post ago i asked God can i live, but i guess not because i still feel lik im at rockbottom again. The thing that's crazy is how long it took me to get "happy" and how fast it was torn down. Pompii was built in a matter of yrs but was destroyed in a few hours, correct? So its safe to say that somethings can ruin your life and theres nothing you can do about it. You try your best to avoid misfortunes but destiny is pretty much set in stone, and you cant cheat mother nature or death. But you can aid them in your downfall. Today while i sat @ the park stareing at my surroundings, i watched a brother and sister and their cuzzin play on the playground...dere lil smiles and happiness made me smile, it brought a tear again to me, as i watched their mothers pick them up and chase them around and watch the kids have fun. I cant understand how my life went from up there to down here...rockbottom. I can feel myself finding artistic inspiration every second. Today i started to draw a picture of a boy holding a gurl crying as they both sit on the floor. I took two pictures, one of a street where all the trees where changing colors and the street was empty and another of a puddle after a raindrop hit it. Pictures make me smile, i love to see beautiful things or happiness. Seeing those things gives me my second wind in life. IT keep sme from jumpin off the edge. the craziest thing is how my smile can fool you so easily. I'm not sure if i lost faith in the human race, if i did it wasnt intentional but what can i say shit happens i guess. I jus got an idea that i had to put to paper before i couldnt picture it anymore. This post is taking way longer than expected maybe because im focusing on so much different shit rite now, multitasking i guess. Today i went to see one of my friends and update him on current problems. After talking to him and telling him what happen and all the details of my downs he was brought to tears and tried to raise my spirits, although i consider him one of my bestfriends i jus didnt believe anythang he said. Its hard for me to accept a compliament, im pretty use to hearing people complain about this and that about me, people do that a lot and im not surprised, but then those same people who down me for who im not they try to build me up...

Come on G...Dont gas me up, I like driving on E...

Right now i think my artwork is gon be pumping out like lil wayne mixtapes, just not alot of the same shit. I always need inspiration to be artistic, but i never feel the need to actually be artistic until im in a bad mood. Im sure some people gon b offended by this post and i know ima see alot more "o so what you dont fuck wit me no more" text's. Crazy huh. Im kinda glad my fone doesnt ring alot anymore, i dont lik a lot of activity on my fone, texts are cool but phone calls and picture msgs n shit i cant deal with and irratate me. Idk y though...but i typed more then enuff. You know i sumtimes feel lik i shuldnt open up lik this in public but i still post im not a perosn who opens up to people im pretty secret about myself. I dont lik people really knowin to much about me, i dont let people read the things in my fone, i dont let people look at my fone, i dont tell people whats going on, if u dont read my blog den u dont know probably. but mayb tommorow will be a better day?

-Aye E

O what you dont fuck wit me no more?!?

Yo wats gud world yo i felt the need to post this post so mafuckas can get me crystal clear and understand. Lik on sum real shit the next person who texts my fone, write on my fb wall, or call me sayin how i dont call them, or check up on them, or etc. gon get they shit kirked on no bullshit. You people kill me, its probablya reason y i dont text, or call ur fone. Beside the fact 9 times out of 10 if my fone rings or i get a text its sumbody askin me for sumthang whether it be money, information, a ride, etc. And da last time majority of yall talk to me was cuz i hit u up last. Den dey got the nerve to tell me i changed. NAw im jus lookin out for me, i aint got time to cater to everybody problems especially cuz after yall get wateva yall need from me i dont hear from yall until da next time i hear from you, or i hit u up and u busy so u gotta hit me lata n lata happens to be wen u need sumthang? Fuck is up wit that? I told myself today dat i aint bouta b tryin cool wit mafuckas n im gon b on sum serious no text/call answerin shit. Niggas n bitches fareal cowards, and its crazy my lil man hit me up dis his 3rd yr in high school, and he lik sum gurl dat he been talkin to for a couple months and said he started fallin for her. Said she got him outta charcter, doin shit he dont do but she dont even hit his fone lik dat unless she wana do sumthang, but if he call her n ask her to do sumthang she always got an excuse y she cant...he said she even will be round his way n wont even hit his fone to cum past n see him. I told him she jus not dat into u and to stop while he was ahead. Cuz it aint no path he wana go down. Its funny how gurls chant n live by fuck niggas n niggas aint shit, but wen a nigga on dey shit n fareal doin it up for a bitch, dat bitch typically play a nigga. Mayb niggas needa start gettin ugly ass bitches cuz at least dem bitches wait on ur hand n foot. cuz it seem lik u pretty bitches is straight ruthless. Someone once told me da only relationship u need is wit God, he wont let u down n will listen to u all da time. Well im still talkin and aint nuffin change. I decided to day that i wuldnt be going to eat thanksgivin or christmas wit my "family". I really jus wana b loaner, always by myself and not openin up wit people cuz people nowadays is off sum ova shit n im on to the next one...
You ain't did nothin I ain't did, nigga pay homage
or pay the doctor, I sprayed Lami's
Still, the time'll reveal, you know I'm bein honest
Ya ain't put my coat yet and I keep my shit in coat check
They say the truth shall come to the light
So everybody grab your chains cause your boy that bright

-Aye E