slippin fallin cant get up

"I had a dream i could buy my way to heaven

when i awoke i spent that on a necklace

I told God id be back in a second

Man, its so hard not to act reckless

To whom much is given much is tested

get arrested guess until he gets the message

I feel the pressure, under more scrutiny

and what i do act more stupidly"

Cant tell me nothing by Kanye West

These couples of bars sum up my whole life. If i could buy my way to heaven id put all that on hold for my love of material things. I have a heart of bronze, it still glitters but it aint gold. Ive made numerous mistakes in my life that i look back and dont regret but are thankful that i was worthy enough to experience and learn from. Growing up all i had was my grandparents, my ma, aunt n cuzzins. We always keep everythang in the family outsiders had to go through alot to be welcomed in. Im not very religous either sumtimes i pray when i need something or when something comes through for me, other then that i really dont see the need to. Dont get me wrong i believe in God, but i jus dont agree with everythang that is preached which makes it harder and harder for me to listen to what they tell me to do. I think God knew what he was doing when he made me. With that said God be with me and my family through these hard times cuz we need it on this one. Im afraid that once she leaves us, this thing we call a family will be demolished...plz dont let that happen cuz i dont kno how much more pain my heart can take its holdin on by a string...

-Erik Holden

What you hada go and do that for?

Nicki...all i gotta say is y u do that to that track it didnt deserve to die, cuz shawty u killed it!

jus cuz its a young money thang ima post this video for your enjoyment here yall go...

"gurl i gotta watch my back im not jus anybody"

-alley e

make em smile

"And one day ima make my mama proud she aint get no abortion"
-Big Sean
Sometimes i get dat feelin lik i cant win. Lik everythang u do jus aint right? The feelin dat after every step forward u take three steps back? Sometimes u need more den motivation to be successful. I always told myself i really only have two true eneimies...myself n time. Myself cuz i can hold myself back betta den any else ever culd...n time becuase nothing last forever n one day itll all end. But thebest thing about u bein ur own enemy is dat u kno all ur own moves so u can adapt n change wateva u need to too defeat urself at not accomplishing what u wana do. The best thang bout change is that we can adapt to it. Our minds automatically adapt to shit. I know by reading my blog ud think my life was shit but too tell u da truth i love my life cuz i kno God makes it harder on the strongest people to make sure they stay on they p's n q's. I kno everythang i do now will prepare me too show my seed how to do thangs n be successful cuz its not bout what u accomplished its about what u did for the world. Leave ur mark on the world cuz its not all about u cuz after ur dead n gone how many people gon giv a fuck if u gone if u didnt help others get to the next level.
-Alley E

we major?

"Ima be late though...i gotta figure out what i wana wear"
-we major by kanye west

In my life ive learned that people have grown to be few from far apart which makes it easier for special people to stand out. Its lik seein a tropic tree frog outside ur house in dc. Ull know em wen u see em. Deres a couple tree frogs in my life dat really think to themselves not soundin cocky jus honored that they culdnt see their life witout me. Not matta what if i consider u close to me ima be here for u everyday every hour minute second u need me. Whether im on time or late gettin to u im always here but never to late. My big cuzzin gave me dis card for christmas, really hit home to me how important i am to her. But sometimes i be wonderin do she know how important she is too me? I reallly cant sit n explain it but i mean she had one of the biggest hands in rasin me. She made me into a thoroubread nigga n able to cop wit change even if i dont lik it. I normally sit on top thw world n think about this gurl. To her idk y but im speciali casn brighten her day jus by sayin hey bootiful or i love you. She gets mad wen she doesnt get to talk to me. I think its hilarious...cuz i like it. Im always late to show up wen i cum c u...reason bin i wana c if u gon wait. For ur babyboy. Prom i was real late but i hada figure out what i wana wear...n one day ima b late again at another ceremony cuz i gotta figure out what i wana wear but i got time...n lik u dream about one day u gon b late too babygurl ;). I doubt anybody else got dat but man idc im jus tryin move 3 if da records 2mill im jus tryin sell 3.
-Y'all kno his name alley e did dis...

A Masterpiece

U kno the funny thing about a work of art? U can learn so much from the process of making it to the revealing it to the world. As long as I can remember I've never been shy to show my own work and I love lookin at other peoples work. Its something about seeing someone elses work that makes me want to step my game up. The interesting thing about art is u take something n giv it ur own aspect n make it even more beautiful. Although its never perfect other people accept it and think its perfect. An artist takes something that people love n makes them feel good. A work of art takes times to perfect but u need the tools to do so. U can't paint a picture without paint n u can't draw a picture without a pencil. People love art, maybe not as much as artist but it makes u feel good. There's something about seeing a picture some drew, painted, or snapped that makes u smile cuz u kno someone else likes an idea, person, or place the same way u do n show u a new perspective of it. Whether it be art, photos, or music people live to see or hear it. My masterpiece is falling apart but I'm still working on it. But u can't paint the perfect picture without a vision or a paintbrush. Now sit back n watch me paint the perfect picture n I promise to make it so all of her flaws n alls can't be seen n wen u look at her, ull jus see a beautiful picture...
"In da hall already, on da wall already, I'm a work of art, ima warhol already"
-Already home by Jay Z ft. Kid Cudi
-Alley E

"We from a small town, everybody talks and everybody listens but somehow the truth keeps coming up missing"
-What's Real by Drake
I look at the world, i look at the pictures people take of me. I see myself. I looked at pictures of myself almost a year ago. My face and body has really taken its toll on me. Maybe could be stress or could be im just getting older. Maybe its both LMAO! IDK though i look back at alot of shit for the past year and fareal i wouldn't do nuttin different. Cuz i kno one day ima see how these situations made me who i am and will be. Ive matured alot, in my own opinion. Ive always been one to toot my own horn, Ive always loved who i am. And so do the people around me. Dey cant keep me from the tip of their tongues. The funniest thing to me is how when sumthang happens or sumbody does sumthang people are always quick to run and tell me. I welcomed home my uncle yestaday its been yrs since i actually seen him, just alot of letters from him but none of mine where returned to him...but its ok talkin to him last nite was like heaven man. We arent necessarily blood but he's been around since i was young and causing trouble LOL. He always call me Wrecking ball E, cuz i use to get in alot of trouble, i dont anymore cuz ive learned my lessons and i preach to the kids now not to be wildin for respect. but i gotta get my sister rone, and o yea my brova bday dis friday o man can u say have it up all wild and crazy!?! O yea before i go listenin to this song all day today, my grandmother said rememeber memories of good times make you able to be more patient for future good times, so im cherishin the good times and hopes of better days

"you da only one who see the real nicki, i can show you chill nicki cuz of how you deal wit me, and when they knock my block down you come and peel wit me, even though you real busy u still fuckin real eazy, its so amazing this world is ours for the taken"

"on another note lets have sex in the green room, and ima make you beg cuz you look pretty when you beggin, so meet me on da campus ill be dere around 11...Leme put my books down excuse me if i look down cuz im a lil nervous but i let you service look at what you took down"

-Aye alley e load da clip n make sure u aint in the negatives...real live

Dont know the rules but yet you tryin play the game

"Love is not who you can see yourself with, but it is who you cant see yourself without"
-Jas
My friend Jas told me that idk where she got it i dont believe she made that up. I really dont LOL. I thought it was a cool post. So now i've seen the disney movie the princess and the frog. It was exactly what i expected. Gud movie though i liked how it ended and the "you know whats coming next" parts LMAO. But for the most part i enjoyed it. now for those of you who dont know this is the first movie disney did with a black person. Walt Disney is a known racist and its revolutionary that he would do this movie. So if your in the mood for a movie you should check it out. I jus noticed is it me or are movies gettin expensive as fuck? Or mayb a niggas is just broke LMAO!!!!!

You see i peeped that pussy is power, that proud feeling we get knowin that pussy is ours, And how it feels to feel that feelin you feelin when you be drillin that shit, got her sayin you be killin that shit, and all the pain the world cause she be hillin that shit, and naw that aint your gurl dog but you be feelin that shit, and you just wana tell her everythang she mite need, but in the mean time its light please lights please lights please
turn off the lights
for now everythang jus seems so right
and how you make the darkness seem so bright

-Lights Please by J Cole

-Alley E