"I had a dream i could buy my way to heaven
when i awoke i spent that on a necklace
I told God id be back in a second
Man, its so hard not to act reckless
To whom much is given much is tested
get arrested guess until he gets the message
I feel the pressure, under more scrutiny
and what i do act more stupidly"
Cant tell me nothing by Kanye West
These couples of bars sum up my whole life. If i could buy my way to heaven id put all that on hold for my love of material things. I have a heart of bronze, it still glitters but it aint gold. Ive made numerous mistakes in my life that i look back and dont regret but are thankful that i was worthy enough to experience and learn from. Growing up all i had was my grandparents, my ma, aunt n cuzzins. We always keep everythang in the family outsiders had to go through alot to be welcomed in. Im not very religous either sumtimes i pray when i need something or when something comes through for me, other then that i really dont see the need to. Dont get me wrong i believe in God, but i jus dont agree with everythang that is preached which makes it harder and harder for me to listen to what they tell me to do. I think God knew what he was doing when he made me. With that said God be with me and my family through these hard times cuz we need it on this one. Im afraid that once she leaves us, this thing we call a family will be demolished...plz dont let that happen cuz i dont kno how much more pain my heart can take its holdin on by a string...
-Erik Holden
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