Aye E da LIVING LEGEND

Ok wats gud world so this post im just ask ya'll some things and check out ya'll feed-back lol but i got alil interesting media talk for ya'll too so dont worry...


Ok first off ima say today i realized i got alotta haters and a couple fans(and i use that term litely lol) but yea now da haters tell everybody and i quote..."Who dat nigga E??? man fuck dat nigga man his real name Erik man dat shit soft yea i heard he be wreckin alil bit but i'll dog dat nigga!" or "man yea i heard he from round the Ave. but he aint even fly he just another nigga man he aint even bout shit he go to fuckin community college he not goin no where in life"...


LOL


kill on my life i'm address you rite here rite now...(cuz i kno a couple of ya'll readin my blog rite now...so leme lay in my style n put ya'll n check! First off look to the left you see dem 7for all mankind jeans try and fill em and walk and take two steps in my bright orange addidas stan smiths...Try my Hugo Boss Orange Label jacket on see how you can't fit it and it covers your whole body? It's funny someone who watched me grow up since i was a seed told me how i'm on a road where there's no going back and I'm destined for great things as is she! Watched me from da days where we was runnig a mock and tearin shit up on State st.!!! rememba dem days??? Miss dem days but aye life goes on and at da rate im goin ima own a state lik shit and have a couple houses around vacations spots lol and as will she...she inspired me to write a check to myself for a millin dollars...sorry to swagga jack you but dat was a good idea lol but off dat note man as SS would say...

HI HATER!!!!

actually manio would say it but id rather giv da credit to her :-)

Next...

Ok i kno its not always good to be fashionably late with movies but the other day we had another snow day and i aint have crap to do so i watched the movie 7lbs...

KILL ON EVERYTHANG DAT MOVIE SPEAK!!!!

I aint gon tell you wat it's bout cuz half ppl already seen it and kno wats up and the other half needa go see it for themself lol

Cuz dat joint da real deal hollyfield!!!

But yea im tired and i'm ready to go to sleep just thoguth i'd give ya'll alil something to wake up to or go to sleep to peace and afro grease!!!

-Aye E

Hot Revolver

Ok everybody i kno i been M.I.A. but shit been real hectic and i jus aint had time to sit n blog but ima give ya'll alil something and den keep it movin till i can drop out another full out post...
first we gon start wit Lil wayne last mixtape...
The life and times of D. Carter

Dis dude really goin thru wit da rock ablum but here's the thing the song is actually kinda tight no bs...like i can get wit it
the song's name is...
Hot Revolver
take a listen...

Now this aint the official video but there's the song now can ya'll get wit it???

Cuz i'm diggin it lol

Here explorin his options but its still respect cuz he bold to tred those waters...

but i especially like da part where da dude comes in singin

"boy you got a problem and you aint foolin no one but yourself

your like a hot revolver but you aint killin no1 but yourself

and so shes gotta find time and you gon find yourself all alone..."

maybe because im sure this is how my road is going...

Next...

before i go ima give ya'll a throw back video dat i really like...so peace and afro grease until da next time dats all my time but tell a friend to tell anotha friend dis is where its at everyday!!

Gone...

Today is January 27th, 2009

Have you ever lost someone so close to that wen u think about the fact that they're gone you cry so hard your eyes hurt???

You continually ask why they were taken from you??? Because in your eyes they were the best thing in your life...to you that was a angel on earth...no one can/could compare to them???

No matter what the problem whether it be big, small, round, square...they always gave you the best advice they could but whether or not it was good advice you thought that was the best advice you've ever heard???

If everytime you think of them and your eyes tear up with tears of joy and pain but no one understands how bad it hurts wen you think of them so they tell you to be strong or not to think about it...

Ppl will tell you that it's been long enuff that they've been gone...and to then say no offense but it's time to move on...

On my right arm are two dates pearched above and below a cross with the name Furman in cursive writing under neath that....

the two dates are 8-27-29 and...

January 25th, 2001

January 25, 2001 was the day my grandfather Furman Brown left this world...

I remember that day like it was yesterday...I was at school and didn't have a care in the world it wasn't that bad of a day really...He passed in mid-day i believe while i was at school. I think my mom didnt want to upset me at school so she didn't come and get me until school let out and she picked me up. I remember getting in that 1998 Jeep Cherokee and without even lookin g at my mom beginnning to tell her about my day...As i was in mid sentence i looked over at her and saw the tears and she told me...soon after the tears poured down my face also...i cried so hard my eyes turned red and bags grew underneath my eyes. I couldn't control them. After i cried myself to sleep and woke up the next day i cant remember whether or not i went to school th enext day or not but i remember the day we buried him. My cousins and aunt and uncle flew in from cali, and all the rest of my family was there. We were at St. Josephs church in Largo, MD. Wen we first got there all of us (my cousins) were speechless and didnt want to say anythang...the funneral begin and i remember people trying to go up to the alter and say a few words about him...but no one could hold their composure and finish what they had to say...

Yes he did have that much of an impact on the people he met...he was that great of a man, just like anyone else he made mistakes but in my eyes i never saw them...ever. I was really young at that time and always thought he did nothing wrong at all he was just a real life saint. to this day i dont remember any1 having a bad idea of him...

Everyday i think about him and it does make me sad and it makes me happy that i can remember him...I will never forget him, he's impacted my life to much to ever forget, if it wasn't for him i prolly wouldnt even be here.

They say that time stops for no one and it goes by like that...but they tell you if you write it down it'll make it seem longer and you'll remember more...I blog because of this...

No one last forever i know but wat if they could last just as long as you last??? would that be good enuff??? Enough said about things that'll never happen because wat is done is done...I guess God had a bigger plan for him and he felt he has done all he could do for our world...i mean he's one man thats done more in one day then others have they whole life...

Furman Brown you will forever be missed and loved by me at the least...

Now as i sit here typing this expert for you today because 2days ago i couldn't bring myself to write it...i cry...i cry as i type every word here tears run down my face because i miss you so much that you'll never know...

Dear God,

I know you don't mean to hurt me as you carry out your daily duties and you do the things that you kno will make me stronger. I jus ask that you take care of my grandfava. Although is he is in a better place i hope you make it so he can still do the things he loved doing. Eating Sweets lik cakes, pies, and cookies, walking to where ever his heart wanted to take him no matter what the weather was, watching his soap operas (man did he love soap operas, probably y my ma loves them mayb it makes her feel closer to him also?), sleeping boy did he love sleeping, and cooking(wasnt always the best food but hey you werent hungry anymore lol. Jus please God give him a happy life and may he continue to watch over me...and to never forget me because i will never forget him.

Amen

Last night i saw u in my dreams....

now i can't wait to go to sleep...

and this life is all a dream...

and my real life starts when i go to sleep....

-"Hey Mama 2009" by Kanye West

-Aye E

Until the day where we meet again...i love you

My president is black but his house ALL WHITE!!!

LOL ok ok now i know ya'll heard about the inauguration ball where
JAYZ & YOUNG JEEZY ROCKED FOR...

Here's the video from the inauguration ball...sorry for the quality but jus watch wit your ears n listen wit your mouth lol!!

I know dey said nigga alot but hey dey was prolly drunk as all hell...
apologize later...
unless you dont mean it lol
Next up...
So i started school today man that thang was so chill i really think i'ma enjoy this semester lik there's ppl there i can relate to this semester...last semester i had all old heads in my classes n wack ass anne arundel county niggas who was sum smack...

But now i got class wit a bunch of ppl dat seem kool nuffin to really complain about...
Now for my teachers...I'm normally terrible wit new teachers but this teacher ja kool prolly cuz she lik 2 yrs olda den me lik 21 or sumthang lol not really but she look yung as hell.
But i'm wait to see what the future holds cuz like my man kanye said...
"So i hoped in the cab and i paid my fare see i know my destination but i'm just not there all the street lights glowing happen to be just like moments passing in front of me..."
K. West da GREAT
But like i said i think ima enjoy this semester and i'ma be able to bust like a 3.0 sumthang GPA (hopefully lol) but anythangs possible if a black man can be president dere's no limit to what we can do as African Americans...

But oh yea CD of the week that i just cant take out my CD player...

Jay Z

"The Blueprint"

Classic CD with the head bangers...

Izzo (H.O.V.A.)

Girls, Girls, Girls

Jigga that nigga

Song cry

U Don't kno

Heart of the City (Aint no love)...

a bunch of other good tracks but yea been in da CD player faithfully lol

O by the way I jus t learned of this candy called...

Twizzlers peel em' Candy

This candy is so good man and its fun to eat cuz you have to peel em off and eat the strips

I know i'ma grown ass kid

Swear i shuld b locked up for stupid shit that i did but ima

"CHAMPION"

But dats all i got for ya'll today peace and hair grease

I'm catch you on da flip side...

-Aye E

Family Business

Hey world wats gud wit ya'll so it's the day after my birthday which i enjoyed...
I recieved a bunch of calls and texts from friends...3people out my whole family (blood fam) said happy bday and i have a pretty big family...

LOL THATS A DAMN SHAME...

But hey life goes on and so must the show that i call my life...
believe me i aint trippin off ya'll actin childish ova what happen...
But in the words of my main man Kanye West....

"Funny how niggas need my help
but wasn't dere when i culdn't
feed myself"
-Kanye West

Now i'm not drastic and cant feed myself but hey they do them and ima do me...
awhile ago i always thought all you needed was family but wen i started growin up i realized all you really need is yourself....
I told many people in my life that you never burn bridges and you dont hold grudges...

My motto is...
"You use people for what you need...
You never get to attached to something...
And you never use someone or something as your crutch...
but remember not all people are bad...
some people really have your best intentions at heart...
so remain humble and never think your own poop dont stink...
cuz wen it hits the fan look around you and see who's there...
wit you"
Word's i live my life to...

But off that note and on to bigger and better notes...

So i've yet to see Notorious but all i've been hearing was that it's a really good movie and people are actually loving the movie which is encouragin me to go see it more just have to find the time...

Now leme get political on you right quick...

Barack Obama became the 44th president today at 12:00pm today for those of you who missed his inauguration speech...

im sorry for you

He gave a wonderful speech about how America needs to ban together and lead by example of how a country should be run and ban together as a people and overcome the obstacles that have been set before us...He said that we need to help each other out and stop being selfish and only concerned about ourselves because in the eyes of the lord we're all brother and sister and how are we showing God's love by tryin to damage each others careers and put each other out of business...millions and millions of dollars riches and fame are unnecessary luxeries...

I understand making money to provide for your family but instead of soaking up all the money how bout you employ your family and friends who need the money so they can learn the value of a dollar??? Way better approach and then the unemployment rate wouldn't be high...think about that America...he said so much more but you shuld hear it from the mouth of the story teller not me...so youtube it...its history...
Next up...


Yea ya'll Super Bowl 43 is on and popin with the Pitt. Steelers vs. Arizona Cardinals...
YEESSSSSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Man the cardinals have come so far as a team that was once thought of as crap to a superbowl team..
.WOW!
lol
But i look forward to this Febuaray 1st, 2009 at 6p.m. to watch this game!!!!
Most likely wont b a good one but it'll be interesting to watch...
And the game is in tampa this year so that'll be cool for the players
and a great place to celebrate...!!!!
Not to be like i told you so but...

Circuit City closed down and 30,000 people are out of work...man i told ya'll we are in na recession and things bout to get hard so ya'll needa step ya'll game up and work ya'll butts off to keep your job...i mean i've been preachin bout it lately and i havent really been workin hard but i kno as soon as im back in the job again i'ma be working hard as crap to get my money and keep my job...ya'll better do the same and look out for each other man dont benedict arnold your co-workers man...REAL TALK

But Peace from D.c. and as always love

Aye E.

I SAID TOAST MOTHERLOVER!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

TODAY IS THE DAY WHERE I LEFT MY MOTHERS WOMB AND STEPPED FOOT INTO THE WORLD....
i'M HERE FOR A REASON I'M NOT COMPLETELY SURE OF WHAT IT IS BUT I KNOW I HAVE MY OWN PURPOSE AND I KNOW IM DESTINED FOR GREAT THINGS...
SO JUST AS MY AGE GROWS IM GROW IN MYSELF AND BECOME...
CLOSER.....
CLOSER.......
CLOSER...............
CLOSER..............
AND CLOSER.........
TO MY DESITINATION
REAL TALK
AND...
"EXCUSES ARE TOOLS OF THE INCOMPITENT
WHICH BUILD MONUMENTS OF NOTHINGNESS
SO THEREFORE THERE ARE
NO EXCUSES!"
-UNKNOWN

BUT IMA ENJOY MY BDAY TODAY AND LIVE MY LIFE DAY BY DAY WITH OR WITHOUT THESE PEOPLE WHO SWEAR UP & DOWN DEY LOVE ME...

Its the return of the...

Hey world yea im back two days in a row...WHOA WATCH OUT NOW!!! lol
So here we go...

In case you've sleep in a cave last night the movie Notorious dropped yesterday...
Now if you follow my blog....
You would have already read the post about this movie already so i aint gon wrap you up again about it...lol but ima say this the one thang that eeks me about this movie is too this day we still dont kno who Biggie killer is so how is da movie gonna end??? just us seein him get shot n faded to a blurry scene of him in a hospital with credits smack after that???
Hmmmmm...guess i'll just have to pay the money and go see for myself...
Next...
Yea now everybody has been talkin bout this movie that came out yesterday and sold out called
My Bloody Valentine 3D

Now as for this movie i could care less about it. I mean they had to make this movie 3D because if they didn't no1 in their right mind wuld even go see this crap like real talk. The whole concept is dumb but since it's in 3D people have to see what it's like. I guess if you kno your making a crappy movie just throw it in 3D and you'll make a box office hit...i guess!!! lol
Now on to the next....
As everyone knows the inauguration is this coming tuesday January 20th, 2009.
As we watch history progress and live on...
We see how the District prepares itself for all the tourist and spectators
I mean i work at Sports Authority and our top 3 sell outs have been...
North Faces & Columbia jackets
Ski Pants...any brand at this point
And...
Hand,foot,toe, and body warmers lol
People are really taking this to heart and making sure they gon be warm out there...Man don't you know it's going to be freezing out there!!! I mean i really want to go really bad but i just cant bear to be outside like that just standing around n NOT EVEN BEING ABLE TO REALLY SEE HIM CUZ I"M SO FAR AWAY!!!
And man they closing down big roads and streets and bridges so you cant go certain ways you can only go this way or that way...Stressful lol
Everywhere you turn you see this...

Thats a real blower and all these detours blow me...you gotta use a half of tank of gas just to get from 8th st to 10th st!!!!
O boy and man they really tryin clean the city up for this Big Event...
They've started kicking all the homeless people out of the city!!!

And METRO is going to be packed with tourist who have no idea if this is their stop or if they're going the right way. They gon be blocking the signs so you cant see and wen u can finally see the map you've already missed like 5trains lol. MAn its going to be so hectic but ima just watch it from my home where it's warm, and the food is free...well almost free lol. And i can actually see his face and not just some dot on a stage!!! lol
I give a roudn of applause to those brave soldiers who are going to be out their watching histor unfold!!!!
*SIDE NOTE*
And from what i hear people will be camping out so they can just wake up and spectate...hey no!!! are ya'll crazy. People in this world are crazy man you dont kno what they'll do while you sleep and if your a snorer like myself you'll be embrassed as people walk by and laugh at you while you sleep and point you out the whole ceremony as a snorer lol.
zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!
My life is a movie through my eyes it's just no script....
I'm da bad guy but da black guy doesnt die in this movie!!!!
Next...
Another story which is almost unbelievable like i really thought this only happen in the movies but i really saw it with my 2 own eyes which hav 20/20 vision lol.
Here we go...
So i'm at work on a FRIDAY NITE!! and this man walks in with a lady and a kid nothing abnormal about that right??? so maybe after like 25mins. go by another lady walks into the store. Now she's very nice lady who walks to the customer service desk and ask's "where are your hand warmers? I need them for tuesday." With a huge smile on her face. By reading her expression you could see she was having a wonderful day. As she was lookin in the bin for a parir of hand warmers the man whom i told you walked in earlier walks past her HOLDING the lady's hand he walked in with and the lil gurl on his back. The man stops right in his foot steps and looks at the woman and she turns around i guess she felt someone looking at her. When their eyes meet lol you could see her once glowing smile turn into a ANGERY FROWN!!!
She then becomes upset and begins to yell at the man..."WHO IS DAT???" The man is studdering and cant even get his words out...
Now by this time i managed to move myself up closer for a first hand view of this going down...Where i wish i pulled my camera fone out and recorded this...I just culdn't take my eyes off to watch wats happening...
Now just faintly you can hear alil gurl say "Daddy why is she yelling at you"...The woman who was yelling soon stops yelling and asks the man..."you're her father?"...The man then replies yes this is my daughter and my wife...The woman breaks down into tears and his wife then FINALLY SPEAKS UP AND ASKS..."who is this woman JEREMIAH?"...the gurl (not his wife) says i guess i was just his little side whore and says they've been dating for a couple months and she really started having feeling for him and some other stuff...After she finshed her little speech about who she is...all while tears are pouring down her eyes she puts the hand warmers back in the bin and walks out embrassed as ever while everyone in the store looks on at what is happening. The man then picks up his daughter again and pulls his wife out the store in embrassment also. You could see in his wives face that he was about to catch some serious hell!!! lol
I swear to you i thought that only happen in movies and stuff but that really happen in the store i work in...NOW TELL ME THAT"S CRAZY AS CRAZY CAN BE...
but i felt so sorry for the lady not his wife but the lady he was cheating with...

Now for the question of the day...

What would you have done in that situation as the woman who he was cheating with????

Thanx for bloggin with me it's been my pleasure....

N who are you...

Iight Respect i aint posted in a while thought bout not doin this no more real talk
but any way as i alwasy say...
BACK LIKE COOKED CRACK...
iight i wana start this thing off wit a video of the week...throwback joint
FREEWAY ft. JAY Z & BEANZ
WHAT WE DO

What We Do - Featuring Jay-Z & Beanie Sigel @ Yahoo! Video

Dat song real as real get real talk
O by the way Freeway got a new mixtape and dat shit like dat
Month of Madness
He dropped a track everyday or video everyday and made this mixtape shit on point get wit it or get lost real talk...

PUBLIC

SERVICE

ANNOUNCMENT

Spaz the writer and Aye E have collabrated and will be puttin out a new clothing line...

the label will be called

"Take me to your leader"

We hope to release our line in the summer...

So be on the look out we will have t-shirts, sweatshirts, hats,etc.

Story Time....(+ the question of the day)

OK so here's something that made me think bout myself

after you read the question think about it and list your own shit...

So leme tell you da background of how it happen and how i was stuck and found my answer and came back responded...

So i was round my old way chillin wit my goonz and my man wanted to step to da carry out so we started walkin up the st. and headed to da carry-out and theres an older lady in the quickie mart by the carry out and dominoes where i stopped and got sumthang to drink rite...So i walk in mind you i'm jus wearin a t-shirt and some sweatpants and a fitted...

The lady then proceeds to ask me and i quote..."Why would you mark up such a beautiful body with all that ink...and why are you walking around with no coat dear because your not superman and you can catch a cold...WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???" now by this time all my manz laughin n im jus starin at her so i pay for my drink and walk out.

Now im kinda mad this woman said anythang to me and i recognized here before because she use to do something with my grandmother and she did ask me was i Mrs. Brown grandbaby lol i aint answer her tho...

So on my way to and from the carry out i thought bout what she said...WHO DO I THINK I AM???

Anyone who knows me knows i hate wen ppl say shit to me about myself unless you kno me...

So on our way back i notice the lady at da bus stop so i gave my man my drink and i walk up to her and tell her...

"I'm Erik holden but round here im Aye E i wear this tattoos because they remind me where i need to go in life and what made me who i am...and as for the neighborhood dat you call the hood naw ma'am i call this home...how would you like me to walk in your house and say damn this house some shit...respect aint jus givin out you gotta earn it wether you a old fart or a teenager...I'm what you call a rolling stone i pick up alotta shit on the way to my desitnation but i always keep goin and nothing stoppin me...i wear what i wana wear seein how you not in my skin it has no effect on you so why does it bother you u cant tell me from any ova kid on dis block yea u may kno who my grandmova is but you dont kno me my ma or her ova grandchildren u may hav only seen me because my ma was working to make a bright future for me and thats who i kno i am" I walked away feelin kinda bad i jus talked to dat old lady like dat but o well she shuldn't have opened her mouth...

*i didnt actually cuss at this lady jus now is where i vented*

Y do old ppl think no1 gon say anything to them because they old granted u did ur service to america wateva wateva but dat dont been you can b a (excuse my french) bitch to eveyone else...

Now thats your question of the day...

What Would you say to an older woman who said that to you???

*o and as a side note SS needs ya'll prayers she is very sick and i need yall to pray for her*

Music just aint what it use to be...

Whats gud World
(in my new york accent lol)
As you can see with the title of this post i'm obviously PISSED OFF with where rap music is going.
First I'ma start with someone who i really cant stand but i can digg a couple of his tracks...
Soulja Boy

His raps are simple and preschoolish every song comes equipped with a new dance....
Come on everytime one of his new songs comes out I find myself watching people tryin learn some new dance from him. Beleive me, I aint hatin on cuz i mean do your thang but dey needa seperate the real musicians from the "work out tape instructors". Now don't get me wrong I can listen to a couple of his songs but man he aint a rapper man. Now his new CD is his sophmore album and i didn't feel his debut album but hey to each his own do your thang but for this album i'ma have to pass again...

O and could someone tell me wtf is "ARAB MONEY"??? i mean last time i checked dey was makin nickeles and dimes like the rest of society from dey gas stations and 7elevens. And Arab from his group aint makin shit...cuz everybody's doin the soulja boy not the Arab...

Now...

Respect goes to a few rappers who keepin the game bearable like...

KANYE WEST, T.I., KEYSHIA COLE, JAY Z, Q-TIP, FREEWAY, JUELZ, FAB, CURREN$Y, ETC.

Now on to a media movie note...

the month of January is here and the long anticipated movie of the late great BIG POPPA will be hitting theaters JANUARY 16th. IDK bout you but i'm lookin forward to seein this movie i really feel like it's gon show respect to the man. Dey got a new guy playin BIG his name is Jamal Woolard, Derek Luke as Puffy, and the stricking look alike Antonique Smith as Faith Evens.

The movie look like it's bout to be like that and word of mouth in the movie industry is that the best movies come out in the beginning of the year and the middle and all the movies they think are going to flop and be some crap come out at the end of the year. But word of mouth is LIL KIM has problems with the movie being released and doesn't think it shows him respect...

Lil kim get real no one even pays you mind anymore man you aint crap to the world anymore you just a walking piece of silcone just climb back on the doctors table you came from man.

Now here's the trailer for the movie real talk check this movie out...

BACK TO THE MUSIC SCENE THO...

Ok i know kanye west's 808 n heartbreaks is being talked about so much that you cant stand to hear bout it...guess wat...i dont care man real talk i just cant stop watching his "heartless" video. Man this video is so creative man, it's all animated and it aint all about ass and hoes shaking it's a real life video...well not so much but you know what i mean...If you haven't seen it check it out man...

I love how he included the Jetson's in the video i use to love that show wen i was a kid lol.

Now that's all i got for ya'll today but here go the question of the day???

What do you think of the Kanye WEst "heartless" video???

to make a short story...LONG!!! lol

Ok I kno it's been a couple days since i posted but here i am...
BACK LIKE COOKED CRACK
So you kno i've had alot of interesting things going on lately...
OBAMA FOR YA MAMA
Maybe ya'll don't but OBAMA landed in D.C. yestaday

Welcome to your new home OBAMA
*just a note yes it's a great milestone for African Americans to have a black president but he is more than just a black president he is here to make change for AMERICA, remember that people*
NEXT.....
NFL PLAYOFFS...
Eagles ova Vikes
Baltimore ova Miami
Colts ova Chargers
Cardinals ova Falcons

O YEA AMERICA!!!
We have a serious weight problem in America please people we need to calm down with our eating habits...we need to portain our food so its more healthy...just small portain satisfies our appetites but your minds make you want to eat more thats why after you eat just a couple bites of food your not hungry anymore but your mind tells you to keep eating because it tastes good. Wen you finish eating you shuldn't feel like your about to explode that measn you ate to much...please people help yourself help America....

Also....
People who have jobs know exactly what I'm talkin about. IF YOU HAVE A JOB DO NOT QUIT YOUR JOB UNLESS YOU ALREADY HAVE ANOTHER JOB LINED UP!!!! we are in a recession and money is hard to come by...do what you have to do to make your money and be on your best behavior at work. At times like this people waiting for someone to mess up so they can fire your ASS and save a couple more dollars.
BE SMART DONT LET PEOPLE
MESS WITH YOUR...
PAPER MONEY MULA GWAP ETC.
Moving on...
THIS IS A PUBLIC
SERVICE
ANNOUNCEMENT

It's a new year and it's time for people to step up dey game for da new year

no such thang as new years resoultions but there are changes you can make for yourself.

Just do you this year and make yourself happy...whether that means someone else who makes you happy or you who makes yourself happy just do what you have do to be happy...Love yourself because thats wats important...

BEFORE I GO.....

Question of the day????

What is your favorite movie of ALL TIME!!!! I mean the movie you can watch over and over and it never get's old to you???

I cant see em comin down my eyes...so i gotta make my blog cry

Respect for the title plz cuz wat im bouta put down is REAL truth man...

I've been off da market for almost two years wit a young lady. Wen shit first started out neither of us lied we was doin our own thang. But as time went on we stopped and dropped da ova joints we each had. Wen we were finally alil intune with each ova somethings happen we ended up breaking up. N we dont break up to make we break up to break up. So we stopped talkin for about a month i aint hear from her and i wuldn't say nuttin to her cuz i knew i wasin da wrong. But my bday came around and i heard from her nuffin to serious jus a hello happy birthday and a goodbye. Cut me deep lik surgery nobullshit. A month later we get back to talkin and she has something to tell me. She pregnant wit some ova nigga baby. At dat time i had one decesions to make leave or stay. Most people talk dat shit and say fuck dat i wulda left man woo woo woo but wen u really down to da bottom of your heart love someone u take em FLAWS AND ALL. (something she dont understand)

Leme explain flaws and all...

Flaws and all means you understand that this is who they are it's not perfect but you cope with it and try to make shit work and try to find ways so it is no longer a flaw but jus something they do and you find away to make it not a flaw in your own eyes. Wen u try to change someone over and over again it doesnt work and will never work believe me i know. The thing about humans that makes us different from animals is we can make adjustments to obstacles so we can surpass them.

PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THAT

Now back to the story...

I took her back we went thru da 9months she had da baby woo woo woo she adorable jus lik her mother. Throughout this whole pregnancy we had problems though we'd be good one day and terrible anotha. It was throwing us both off track cuz we both aint kno how to handle our relationship and her situation. Now here we are 4months after the baby's birth. and we're worse den we eva have been before. Now today and last nite wen we talked i felt guilty about everythang and bad but after speaking with a couple people who arent just my friends but hers also gave their honest opininons and although no one every likes to take the blame which makes things between people extra hard thats what happen here. Wen you create a situation not jus pregnancy any siuation man you needa find a way to cope with it and make shit flow. You cant have your cake and eat it too...like you needa to work with some1 especially if dat person made a sacrifice to stay wit you afta all they done been through like aint nobody askin you to kiss noone feet just be smart about shit and seein how you are affeccting others with your decesions...i mean afta everytime i fucked up and you got mad wuld u wana hear "i mean i sometimes just dont think about stuff like i should i dont be using my common sense sometimes"? I kno u reading this to so u kno wat i'm talkin bout. The truth of the matter is you have to give alil bit more because of your situation. And because of ur situation i'm out in da streets where you dont want me to be cuz you aint got time for me like you forgot your watch. And then wen you actually feel lik hangin out wit me you get mad if i don't have time to do it or wen u wana talk to me but i'm out all day cuz you culdn't speak to me all day. Remember i told you i was thinnkin bout goin away next year for school i wasn't jokin i feel like maybe school will make me think about spendin time with you less and it will b out my mind cuz why shuld i worry bout spendin time with someone who never asks me too spend time with them??? riddle me that.

There's no doubt that i love you and theres no doubt that you dont love me but i dont think we ready to love each other anymore...and dats sad as fuck because outta every1 we kno da one thing they always say about us is how cute we are and how amazed they are at our relationship.

Guess you wasnt that amazed...

guess i didnt care enuff...

No such thang as pointing fingers but if not leme be the first to say that I LOVE YOU with all my heart and maybe oneday this relationship will work but it seems to me dat your not ready for this...and like everyone told you i'm not your average joe and it takes work to understand me...I'm lik a rubix cube I'm hard to crack but easy to understand. But i hope you the best in everythang you do and everythang kamiya do also. I hope you all your dreams come true and you live your life with nuffin but happiness realtalk and evidently that begins with the subtraction of me...but thats your work in progress and i hope you find what you what and need and life...

Lik i said before i won't forget i got a star dat wont let me forget anyway and thats permanant...but so long for now until the next lifetime but i culdn't see em coming down my eyes so i hada make my blog cry.

B