Second wind

"cant be scared to fail, search for perfection"

-On to the next by Jay Z

Real live shit have you ever seen a beautiful disaster??? Not always a person but more like a situation. I've learned that its better to worry bout shit in da long run and not so much the "crack feeling" (rite here rite now, and naw i aint on crack jus blounts of exotic). But i mean real talk living life with worries has really put my life in da gutta fareal...but afta goin to church dis sunday and not to mention is the wealthest church in pg county, i really learned alot. I learned how everythang aint wat it seems but if sumthang is good you dont let ova shit ruin wat gud you have...you dig me now recently ive examined my temper, and those of you who dont kno me i have a serious temper me n my cuz lik to joke and call it the brown temper. everybody in my family has it jus sum peoples is higher than others. but in the end i let my temper get the best of me and control my life but not anymore you cant help what people do, say, or to a certain extent the things that happen to you. My ma tells me the best way to defeat a problem is to walk with high hopes and reassure urself that you can do anything you put ur mind too. Everyone is built in the image of God, am i correct? yes...so God is the strongest being, spirit, etc. which means we were built to be strong, born to lose but built to win. <-----true words in case you dont know...No one really knows what they want granted but everyone knonws what they like. Be who you are is what its about dont let others dictate wats cool, or how you shuld act, or what you should think. Naw jus show urself a good time and look at the glass half full cuz when it all comes down u'll realize how much stronger going thru everythang you endured in your life made you. They say take a leap of faith and let your wings guide you...but most of all as long as you live never say never (kinda contridictory [sp] because i jus said never twice but u get da point) and most of all dont give up on yourself, its always darkest b4 the dawn well deres sunny days and fun in the sun comming very soon jus wait your turn, and know some1 will help you to see the sunshine in your life...Now please let go and leave it in God's hands, he wont put you in a situation dat you cant handle...

-Aye E

I hope this helps someone who aint at 100% but believe me i've been at rock bottom and still only a couple centimeters away from it but im lookin at the glass half full and im ready to fill dat glass up, are you???

and remember dreams are where reality doesnt exist so dream big and large and set no limitations on your goals boo...you can do it and im here with you every step of the way, lets walk to the stars and look at the people we left behind, now be who i know you can be dont compromise your destiny, levita alize jenkins robinson im ready and i got the solution to all our problems...

Drake-Fear

yo on sum real shit this song real as shit and yea shawty u feel lik it aint a waste of time but its da wrong time but i kno fareal it culdnt be better time cuz i kno u need me more den ever before n vice versa shawty...dont fear u destiny to be great SS...

Dont believe the lies.
Look me in my eyes.
Please dont be scared of me.
Please dont be scared of me.
I remember you.
This feeling isnt new.
So please dont be scared of me.
Please dont be scared of me.
...
"And I been getting high to balance out the lows"
Fear by Drake
-Aye E aka Booka da wild child

Straight like that classic

she know who dis directed to throwback classic for you and a throwback memory...


remember dis???

Classic Throwback

Dope song, i know its been a long time cummin but i know change gon cum...

This song gives ya boy faith...
hope it does for you too...

now for sum sour diesiel and work...
-Aye E

Bittersweet poetry

has anyone had a case of bittersweet poetry???? its a blower no bullshit when you know u want sumthang but it dont happen how u want...its funny i use to joke and kid about this song but i like it so much maybe cuz it does apply to us...idk. I rememeber sayin damn yo no bull but this line here i culd see us doin lol (its jus a joke though)...

"Have you ever felt you ever want to kill her And you mixed them emotions with Tequila And you mix that with a little bad advice On one of them bad nights y'all have a bad fight And you talkin about her family her aunts and shit And she say motherfucker your mama's a bitch You know domestic drama and shit All the attitude I'll never hit a girl but I'll shake the shit out of you But ima be the bigger man Big pimpin like jigga man Oh i guess i figure its..."

bittersweet!!!!!!

Doesnt everybody jus wish they could have their cake and eat it too or shit would jus go how its supposed to???

but this aint a fairy tale so its rarely a happy ending but its bittersweet though ill tell you dat much....

Pressure

Fear not when, fear not why, fear not much while were alive, life is for living not living up tight, see ya somewhere up in the sky, fear not die, i’ll be alive for a million years, bye bye, so not for legends, I’m forever young my name shall survive through the darkest blocks, over kitchen stoves, over Pyrex pots, my name shall be passed down to generations while debating up in barber shops, young slung, hung here, shorty, the n-gga from here with a little ambition just what we can become here, and as the father passed his story down to his sons ears, younger kid, younger every year, yeah so if you love me baby this is how you let me know. don’t ever let me go, thats how you let me know, baby,

Forever Young by Jay Z

Blogspot,

I can honestly say that pressure was the worst thing ever created yo besides karma. When pressure is put on sumone its hard for them to even think right. Rite now my life is in shambles and it kills me to wake up everyday (im thankful i do) and deal with the pressures of life. I mean its jus so much shit goin on everyday its more bad news. Most people have some way of getting it out and before i did...i jus relaxed and looked at the stars n hit a blount but now it makes me even more sad and upset. I hate where my life is now but dey say once u hit rock bottom u cant go no where but up and also wen god closes a door he opens a window...I really do wish i had an outlet fareal jus to get the power i need to get from day to day...deres sumtimes where i go to sleep and i jus wish i culd stay sleep for the whole day. And its crazy how ppl will be all in ur face while u gud and nuffins goin on but when times get tuff n u not good at all den dem mafuckas hit ghost. I guess its true what they say outta sight outta mind. But if anythang i learned a long time ago nothing last forever...friends, family, relationships none of dat shit guaranteed so when you have nuffin left how do u keep on going??? Where can i get my power from cuz it seem to me dat everybody jus runnin my battery down and just leavein me wit low battery...

Aye yall pray for me cuz i really need dat shit yung

Rip...

lil amp

phil

Dre

Q

lil gus

melvin

looch

I kno yall walkin in heaven but dont forget me down here watch over me as a walk throught the shawdow of a vally of death and leade me and guide me and make sure the big man hears my prayers...

deep breath

-Aye E

Eve

"Lights is blinding, girls need blinders so they can step out of bounds quick, the side lines is blind with casualties, who sipping life casually, then gradually become worse, don’t bite the apple Eve, caught up in the in crowd, now your in-style, and in the winter gets cold en vogue with your skin out, the city of sin is a pity on a whim, good girls gone bad, the cities filled with them, Mommy took a bus trip and now she got her bust out, everybody ride her, just like a bus route, Hail Mary to the city your a Virgin, and Jesus can’t save you life starts when the church ends, came here for school, graduated to the high life, ball players, rap stars, addicted to the limelight, MDMA got you feeling like a champion, the city never sleeps better slip you a Ambien"

Empire State of Mind by Jay Z

Yo wats good world i named this post Eve cuz its about a person who i wana call eve. As you all know (or if u dont ull learn now) Adam n Eve da story...adam represented men and eve represented women so we have a base rite???...Adam and Eve. Now adam and Eve were in love they culdnt be happier dey knew wat each ova liked n how to get thru problems for adam n eve is was more lik which tree we gon eat from today but dey were good together n lik anything good it has haters which in Adam and Eve's case was the devil...now the devil came from way left field and when it came from way left field Adam was like who is you talkin to my wife tellin her non sense bout Adam n his God...Even though Adam talk shit not aloud but to himself he still followed Eve even wen he knew it was wrong...We all know how that story ends and when it was all said and done Eve realized she lost out Adam knew though before cuz he saw the potential way before hand he was disappointed i could tell you...

But lik everyone who heard that story thought...
"Dont bite the apple eve..."

Now im not tryin compare myself or any1 i know to Adam n eve im jus sayin its a story and it can relate to how some people feel...dey dont want you to bite the apple and lose your innocence ya smell me???

-Aye E

yall seem to be on da beginner page...

yo im thinkin to myself that niggas jus aint on da same page no more...lik i personally feel lik im on my own page and aint nobody fuckin wit me lik im jus on my own shit nowadays not on now braggin shit lik im da flyest or smartest or bestlookin nigga naw not no shit lik dat i mean mentally personally i feel lik i cant dress i dont think i look good n i damn sure aint dat smart lol but wat i mean is im jus tryin do different shit lik im not focused on nuffin else but the things that make me happy now...and i can literally count dat shit on one hand...i really dont want to be on no networkin shit nomore but i kno i cant do nuffin all by myself ask anybody whos famous nobody did it they self they had help n if u aint useful den u useless straight lik dat lik people make simple shit so hard tryin keep up wit da jones' lik dat shit kill me...be happy of who u r and wat u hav cuz every mans garbage is another mans treasure yo!!! dat goes for people too...Ive learned people talk yo secrets rnt kept and shit hits da fan so i live and i learn and i keep it movin. I open and close chapters in my life all the time but rite now im walkin dis lonely road by myself...3 L's Live Love Laugh den ur dead...

-Aye E can you show me how to do da chedder???

Lil bro Big bro

Yo world i jus gotta talk bout how my brothas talk big shit lol dey kill me lol my brova status on fb now say... why does a big brother always have to save his little brother? imma need this nigga to get his shit together...lol wat a bitch n my ova brova jus ignorant lol mayb dats where i get it from cuz he wreckless at da mouth but aye dat shit true n funny lol aye family is crazy lol N wat else is crazy me n ma dukes talked for lik an hr bout our family i never knew i was related to all these people lol kill today goin pretty good lol

Swagg

Yo my nigga kid cudi swagg is on a thousand yung no bullshit lik dat nigga be sweizy wen he on stage this summer i was supposed to get my skateboard swag on n jus do ice cream tshirts the hundreds tee's and supreme fitteds n jackets but i guess not being employeed rained on that parade but hey i back in da work force ima be able to get back on my shit...swagg on a hundred thousand in case u aint know bitch...

-Aye E

A new day

Wow todays sunday i had a whole plan of shit to do today that was completely unchecked because i never got around to doin g any of it. Lik i started my day with a hair cut...i love new hair cuts lik my shape up is nice afta a new cut n wen u rub my head it feels soft as shit lol...i like how my head feels no homo lol. And den goin to NTB to get my tires rotated which took all damn day while waiting for my car i got lifted off a blunt of og kush and sour diesiel...yea i smoke like the celebrities all loud ova hear lol...if u aint from da city u aint gon undastand loud is exotic... lol but i was gone for lik a good 4 hours where i dogged shit in my sociology class but wen i came down started bombing asignments lol jammy...but a couple of my mans came thru n da beers jus cummin da hooters wings was hot n da js were lit while we watched my skins lose to add insult to injury i already have a tough time with my new turn in life didnt wana get off track but i couldnt ride a train that didnt kno i was along for the whole ride...crazy...but im up with the clouds again n slightly nice from da budlights nuffin lik football n beer yo i need more den dat to forget da pain though...kills me but life goes on im outtie 5000 vma's on n im high enuff to watch it...

oh yea before i go more bars from loso just how i feel rite now...

"So I went home to shorty, had trouble sleepin'- shorty's kinda peepin my sudden discomfort She woke up mad early, so I got up with her She wanted to go alone, but a nigga insisted Like "Baby it's been a while" and truthfully I missed it We rode out, but she don't know that I done made a plan Once she hits the spot, one shot- see you later man I watched her in the building, knowing it's the last time-seein' her ass climb in and out of the car Yo I even thought about gettin' out of the car But sat back lookin' at the ring about to be yall's I let one tear fall at an unfair call Ya whole life can change in just one year yall.. Caught in a thought, then I heard a :: BANG! ::

Hi love, bye love, I will miss my love"

When we say no but our minds mean yes...

yo real talk heres a serious question...what makes people say sumthang dat they know dey dont mean??? But sum people will tell you what u wana hear because they cant say no, sum people jus cant say no period. Why is that??? I admitt at times i cant say no to some people but for sume reason when i do say no people kno it means no...mayb im jus not a mean person, i usually help those close to me wen dey need it but sumtimes its cuz i cant say no to sum people take my sistas for example i can for sum reason unbeknownst to me i cant say no to them wen they ask me to do shit, ill shift shit around to meet there needs...not complainin at all so please dont think that but i am asking what is it in people that makes them say yes wen dey mean no??? I typically dont mind helpin as long as i got it im kinda one of those as long as im eatin da fam eatin too u smell me??? N anotha question is y people gotta question anything u say if u not speakin direct english, sum ppl speak slang i do all da time pretty much everythang that cumes out my mouth is slang lol but im gud at speakin "white" when i need to interviews, @ work, to ppl im tryin network with...but granted i pretty much do as i please wen it cumes to my daily thoughts n actions but dey sumtimes are bad but i learn from it wen its gud i note to keep it as a moral...basically what im saying now is...
IMA SHOW YOU HOW TO DO DIS SON!!!!!
i kno i will be successful n deres no doubtin that oh yea ima leave yall wit a couple bars from my man loso...
I said..fuck em all, muthafuck em all Ya'll done turned a good guy into a Chuckie doll I would've been your friend till the end bitch Guess there ain't no friends in this shit bidnessJust a bunch of assholes in the shit bidness But they won't flush me down the toilet bowl without my tissue These bitches talk shit out the same mouth they kiss you These niggas kiss ass with the same mouth that diss you Eww, you niggas disgust me And they ain't talkin bout shit unless they discuss me Let's talk about how, I'm killin errything I touches Or how I walked in this game with no crutches No Diddy, No Dupri, No Dr. DreNo Cash Money from Baby and no rocs from Jay And I'm still hereWe still here

Can u answer my question???

Its been a long time i kno but hey been searching for sum answers n sum mental sanitity. Now ive figured alot out sorted alot of shit in my head n placed some who's who and whats wat in my head but one thing i cant figure out one bit is love...yea L O V E, two people meet n spend time wit sum1 n dey or one falls in love wit da ova...What is it that makes people wna giv sum1 150% of themselves n recieve 20% back??? Why is dere a thin line between love and hate??? if they dont love each other then one hates the other even if they wont admitt it...For sum reason ppl spend their whole life lookin for a "soul mate" or sumone to spend their time with??? Ppl base their lives off this n i jus cant seem to understand y?? Granted u cant choose who u love but damn imagine if u culd??? Things wuld b hectic...out of control...chaos to say the least...But for those of you who dont kno there is difference between love and lust....two L words but each is different fromthe other...When sum1 is on da ropes i mean on dey last leg n sum1 helps u even though its all they hav they love u cuz dey wuld rather c u straight n dem struggle den to watch u struggle...make them do out of charcter shit to make sure u straight...ppl can giv u dey last n in return cant even get the time of day wit that person...realitity settles in rit ein front of ur face...u kno it cuz u feel it, as u watch this person smile in ur face and as u hear them lie to u and say they love you...have u ever heard a heart break??? naw cuz its a different kind of pain...a pain that makes u wonder why??? But theres also karma...she plays a huge role in relationships...n doesnt care how u feel...so im askin u can u tell me y is that even though u feel sum1 u love doesnt care bout u as much as u do them y is it so hard to move on to nothing???