Warning:
A Crucial Venting
Session Approaching
So this morning after completely being irratated, fustrated, and thinkin bout how everybody else has shit handed to em on a silver platter, i mean dont get me wrong lik i never recieved anything from anybody but wen sum1 did give me sumthang i earned it. I'm really big on not owein anybody nuffin cuz i feel lik im a man n i shuldnt really have to rely on ppl for shit. The one thing that makes a man a man is him being able to do for himself. He needs to establish those morals and goals in his head early...He needs to kno what his 5-10yr plan is, but he doesnt have to necessarily know how to get there.People are way to busy thinkin bout how can they stay in people's eye's. They need the latest clothes, they need the bling bloaw bur, they need to have the nice car, they have to money to blow, they gotta have it up every weekend, they jus gotta do shit to keep up with the jones'. Kanye said it best...you worry bout the wrong things. It's crazy cuz i was on dat shit hard as fuck, harder den alot of niggas out here i use to think what you wore made who u r in society, if you wasnt in da club evry friday saturday n sunday you was a square. I bet most people wont kno that most of my name brand shit now is from a long time ago. I really am a discount shopper now, i shop at thirft stores, and i wear what i lik whether its new, old, ugly to you, whatever, you aint got to wear it, who gives a fuck what your wearing, people on dat michael jackson shit, no disrespect and rip lik i love mike but jus cuz u missed a piece of life dont mean later down da line you needa do it. God dont make mistakes, if you missed it you missed it for a reason. People wana be out and about all da time but dey aint got da money to be out and about. People let others dictate to them what they're supposed to like. Its fuckin bonkers to me and baffles me. I really am glad im lettin myself live life how i see fit. I make moves off what i want and can do. I dont need anybody tellin me whats cool, whats the best thing, etc. theres an old saying that "you can lead a horse to water but you cant make him drink it". Real live nigga shit. People are scared to be made fun of, guess what even with your nice clothes, fancy cars, n money, people still talk shit, look at celebrities, would you really want mafuckas takin your picture and new rumors every week??? I said in a past post dat mafuckas was stuck on dis beginner page and i meant it. The thing i was thinkiin bout was how people down me for smokin. I jus wana put this out there is Canada at war??? is amsterdam at war??? Naw dey not but weed is legal over there, in fuckin Canada havent you heard you can leave your house and leave the fuckin front door unlocked. Tryin doin dat shit round here, you minds well leave a sign on the door "hey robbers i left the door open so itll be easier to steal all my shit and jus park your truck on my front yard so you wont have to move so far." Are they havin money problems??? NAw cuz mafucka are chilled the fuck out over there. People can always talk about what you doin wrong but wen it comes to them all a sudden you real fuckin quite. The inspirition that keeps me going these days comes from 3people, my mom, my cousin, and SS. I can give a reason why i wish i could be all three of them combined and heres why...
My ma is jus pandoras box of information and inspirition she did everythang for me and even when i came around (born) she did what she hada do to make sure i was good. She made sure i undastand that in this life no one gives u anything and if dey do u dont want 2 owe dem anythang, she is starting her own business and in school again tryin to get her master's. I can always appreciate the fact that she still tries to learn even wen she has the minium (sp) she goes above and beyond and from her i strive to follow in her footsteps of strving for more and earning more then what you need so your field of options can be wide and vast. Even though me and my ma have differences and we dont always see eye to eye, i look up to her the most out of anyone cuz she made it, She showed yall how to do this son!!! Next from my cuzzin she has been through a harder life then me but at the same time she still handled her business and is following her dream of music. And that shit is dope not only is she doing that she still in school getting her degree and working and living by herself. From her i learn and strive to follow my dreams and despite what people think or say do what you want to do. You'll be way happier in the long run, and from her i got my real second wind and got my shit together and maya i couldnt thank you enough for really talkin to me and actually sitting me down and really talkin to me on sum real shit. I love you fareal cuzzo and as goes for you, you know aint nobody gon do shit to me and u kno im here for you always and forever. From her, how to keep goin when life has you down, even though life is a struggle to get out of bed and handle the business you need to get done. Had a baby went to community college left dat got into a four yr institution and still takin care of a baby full time. wow. Can i have some of your strength to keep goin you got enuff to pass around dont you??? lol All of these people show me everday that youcant stop going because your chips are down. Now i jus finished reading a friend of mine blog about life, and it was the realist post i seen from anyone else in a long time. you people reading this should read dat...heres the link...
What i took from the bpost was people arent people anymore. We live in a world of animals and robots. Leme explain this, i say this because people have become animals through greed, hatered, and lust. Even though scientifically they are called humans they are animals, because who could walk up and kill sum1 because of where they from, cuz you talk to my x, etc. only animals kill for stupid reason, the same animal who has kids and dont take care of none of em, the same person who mooches off sum1 else with no intention of giving back or helping them back when they need it. Its jus lik in the animal kingdom everybody for themself. Only animals can turn dey back on another animal and only animals want to hurt humans. Which is sad because people are mammals but were not supposed to be animals. Now as for the robots those are the people who take in everythang that the government, strangers, teachers, etc and take it literally. People are entitled to your opinion, so fuckin use it. I cant stadn people who arent registered to vote by choice who complain about shit, if you aint give them your two cents den wtf you complainin about now, you aint giv a fuck den so y all of a sudden you do now??? Reguardless of what people tell you u have to do your own research and make ur own decesions, bout how you should feel, how you want to do things, etc. It fareal kills me wen people tell you ur doing sumthang wrong. You people wana act like animals until you cant hang, u wana dog people out and be judgemental about shit but wen niggas rob ur shit lik animals all of a sudden you talkin bout wat kinda people would do that. While dey askin what kinda people would hold sum1 down when they made mistakes. "people" and i use this term very loosly dont respect each over. And i almost forgot theres one more type of person, and thats a real nigga. A real nigga gon let you know whats ups whether it be good or bad, mafuckas is way too sensative these days, mafuckas bitch moan n cry but when sumbody try tell dey ass something dey get mad and dont wana hear it...see in this day and age real niggas is livin with animals [snakes] and robots [government officals, students, etc.], and the world aint ready for real niggas and probably never will be...now out of all these types of people which one are you...
and in the end i hope everbody slows down and doesnt compromise their destiny because you never know what you can achieve by not trying...
-Aye E (a real nigga)
i encourage you all to post your thoughts and feelings on this post seriously...come real or dont come at all
