Can I Live

It aint like i aint tell you from day one i aint shit

Wen it comes to relationships i dont have the patience

no its too late we have a lil life together

in my mind i really want you to be my wife forever

but in the physical its lik im gon be triffe forever

a different gurl every nite forever

...

Gina please dont love me...

-Soon You'll Understand by Jay Z

Yo world wats good I woke up this morning thought of your face and smiled as i texted goodmorning and wiped the sleep out my eyes. Small kiss u gave me last nite i can still taste on my lips this morning. shower's coming soon, breakfast is unknown in this household so im straight hustlin and bustin my ass before class to finihs a mini-project i left to do before i got to class today. Court went terrible i have to pay the damn ticket cuz my officer was the only officer to show up to court while everybody else went free because the officer didnt show. WTF? oh well you live and you learn, to bad i didnt learn shit cuz i still speed mafucka be runin late ya smell me? So i was thinkin as i walk through the mall yestaday and looking up at the sky through the sky windows, I wonder if God was looking at me, i was wonderin what he thought of me as he looked at me. Sometimes i wish i could ask him some questions and he fareal reply back and answer those questions, but then i guess u have a unfair advantage if u ask him questions. so i'm tryin live but niggas keep tryin me, gotta learn to keep my cool and stay calm and collected cuz im already a fool wit perspective. I gotta learn how to pick and choose my battles cuz it seem lik i get myself in alot of trouble that could be avoided, by jus lettin niggas be niggas cuz i kno i dont gotta prove myself to these "up and coming" niggas. My cuzzin Spaz told me she couldnt lose me, i made a promise to myself she would neva have to worry bout it so here i am tryin live...but i dont wana jus live i wana live my life to the limit and love it alot.

So God please dont be mad at my decesions, or my moves i make, jus understand i wana be me, you know me better then any1 else, and you kno my good out weighs the bad so please forgive me for my sins wen we meet.

So can i live?

-Aye E