A Masterpiece

U kno the funny thing about a work of art? U can learn so much from the process of making it to the revealing it to the world. As long as I can remember I've never been shy to show my own work and I love lookin at other peoples work. Its something about seeing someone elses work that makes me want to step my game up. The interesting thing about art is u take something n giv it ur own aspect n make it even more beautiful. Although its never perfect other people accept it and think its perfect. An artist takes something that people love n makes them feel good. A work of art takes times to perfect but u need the tools to do so. U can't paint a picture without paint n u can't draw a picture without a pencil. People love art, maybe not as much as artist but it makes u feel good. There's something about seeing a picture some drew, painted, or snapped that makes u smile cuz u kno someone else likes an idea, person, or place the same way u do n show u a new perspective of it. Whether it be art, photos, or music people live to see or hear it. My masterpiece is falling apart but I'm still working on it. But u can't paint the perfect picture without a vision or a paintbrush. Now sit back n watch me paint the perfect picture n I promise to make it so all of her flaws n alls can't be seen n wen u look at her, ull jus see a beautiful picture...
"In da hall already, on da wall already, I'm a work of art, ima warhol already"
-Already home by Jay Z ft. Kid Cudi
-Alley E

"We from a small town, everybody talks and everybody listens but somehow the truth keeps coming up missing"
-What's Real by Drake
I look at the world, i look at the pictures people take of me. I see myself. I looked at pictures of myself almost a year ago. My face and body has really taken its toll on me. Maybe could be stress or could be im just getting older. Maybe its both LMAO! IDK though i look back at alot of shit for the past year and fareal i wouldn't do nuttin different. Cuz i kno one day ima see how these situations made me who i am and will be. Ive matured alot, in my own opinion. Ive always been one to toot my own horn, Ive always loved who i am. And so do the people around me. Dey cant keep me from the tip of their tongues. The funniest thing to me is how when sumthang happens or sumbody does sumthang people are always quick to run and tell me. I welcomed home my uncle yestaday its been yrs since i actually seen him, just alot of letters from him but none of mine where returned to him...but its ok talkin to him last nite was like heaven man. We arent necessarily blood but he's been around since i was young and causing trouble LOL. He always call me Wrecking ball E, cuz i use to get in alot of trouble, i dont anymore cuz ive learned my lessons and i preach to the kids now not to be wildin for respect. but i gotta get my sister rone, and o yea my brova bday dis friday o man can u say have it up all wild and crazy!?! O yea before i go listenin to this song all day today, my grandmother said rememeber memories of good times make you able to be more patient for future good times, so im cherishin the good times and hopes of better days

"you da only one who see the real nicki, i can show you chill nicki cuz of how you deal wit me, and when they knock my block down you come and peel wit me, even though you real busy u still fuckin real eazy, its so amazing this world is ours for the taken"

"on another note lets have sex in the green room, and ima make you beg cuz you look pretty when you beggin, so meet me on da campus ill be dere around 11...Leme put my books down excuse me if i look down cuz im a lil nervous but i let you service look at what you took down"

-Aye alley e load da clip n make sure u aint in the negatives...real live

Dont know the rules but yet you tryin play the game

"Love is not who you can see yourself with, but it is who you cant see yourself without"
-Jas
My friend Jas told me that idk where she got it i dont believe she made that up. I really dont LOL. I thought it was a cool post. So now i've seen the disney movie the princess and the frog. It was exactly what i expected. Gud movie though i liked how it ended and the "you know whats coming next" parts LMAO. But for the most part i enjoyed it. now for those of you who dont know this is the first movie disney did with a black person. Walt Disney is a known racist and its revolutionary that he would do this movie. So if your in the mood for a movie you should check it out. I jus noticed is it me or are movies gettin expensive as fuck? Or mayb a niggas is just broke LMAO!!!!!

You see i peeped that pussy is power, that proud feeling we get knowin that pussy is ours, And how it feels to feel that feelin you feelin when you be drillin that shit, got her sayin you be killin that shit, and all the pain the world cause she be hillin that shit, and naw that aint your gurl dog but you be feelin that shit, and you just wana tell her everythang she mite need, but in the mean time its light please lights please lights please
turn off the lights
for now everythang jus seems so right
and how you make the darkness seem so bright

-Lights Please by J Cole

-Alley E

Classic Throwback

Classic Fab before he was loso, back when he was spellin his name in every song...
F A B O L O US
LMAO!!!!!

At first you were somethin i denied
Something I would slide
Just do somethin in the ride
But shorty
Theres something that you provide
Cause the entre ain't as good without something on the side ya' know.
-Alley E

Is how u get ahead

"Baby you know it gets no better then this, its like sunshine on a rainy day, its like a high how could you take me away?...Its a beautiful day!"
Ive been singing this song since i woke up dis morning. Fuck wit it too hard. O yea i took a picture of how to study.

O yea dat bowl is my boy BLUE,
YOUR MY BOY BLUE!!! LMAO
Lol i thought that was funny
Anyway tolerance break so no tree for two weeks
O yea who fuckin wit this song B, chip the ripper mixtape "the clevland show" if u aint got it get it...UHHHH WAT CHA KNO BOUT IT!

Hope yall fuck wit it too but ummm i gotta go get it in at work!
"And all these rappers know just where im bout to go so catch me then, where all the gurls we knew that said fuck u definately gon let me in,I'm definately in a class of my own at dinner wit HOV hopeing he pass the baton he just pass the Patron, AINT NUFFIN GIVIN DOG ITS EARNED, if you just livin dog you learn, i let u niggas see the light im lik the prision yard i yearn for that livin large, but my mind aint done yet sit back and watch your son rise kick back and know your son set forever i aint run yet and never will NAs told me lifes a bitch Pac said fuck the world but i aint cum yet, you up yet? My punch lines like gut checks im raw dog, im rough sex, im on deck, IM UP NEXT, IM GOD BLESSED, IM SUCCESS, so fuck stress you can get the fuck from round me, and if you listenin i know you wonderin where da fuck dey found me im from da alley"
Beautiful Bliss by Wale ft. J-Cole

-Alley E

"Do you already! Enough wit the complaining and boo hoos already!"

-Already Home by Jay Z

Today this is my advice to myself! Today i proved to myself n u, now u owe me a dub that the statement "outta sight, outta mind" is one of the realest statements ever. I could name you a bunch of niggas n bitches who love me while im around or as long as im on 24/7 joke time, which i normally am in company. But i peep game, adapt to the game, and make changes n lead the game. Plus im 2much for these niggas n 3much for these hoes. Im happy ive finally filled a whole entire book, every page front n back. Extremely proud of myself. Throughout my whole life i could never fill up a book but i did.

"everythang that glitters aint gold, thorughout my life i see these truths unfold"

-Alley E

Sex in Crazy Places ft. Bobby V, Trinia, & Nicki Minaj

Song goes hard i think that gucci cd growing on me uhhhh WHAT CHA KNO BOUT IT!

Lol this song is just kinda funny but i fuck wit it cuz dats how i be feelin LMAO!

oh yea yesterday sumbody made my day by tellin me i smell lik i got kush for cologne! LOL

O so now im the loudpack! UHHHH WHAT CHA KNO BOUT IT!

-Alley e

Dope Ass Songs

Yo so i dont think i been fuckin wit the clipse since "gridin" & "when the last time". But heard there last mixtape dont recall the name but shit was dope as fuck im really fuckin wit this joint though...idk yall can peep heem, also dey shot out my city DC, shouts to the southside minnesota ave deep up in da alley smokin sour desiel n sippin 40's. Anyway back to the song o yea my nigga Cam'ron jumped on the track and i kno sum people gon be mad wen i saw this but i fuck wit Cam'ron as a rapper dat nigga flow. IF u dont fuck wit him mayb u needa dig back in your youtube history, he got bangas smell me.

"Ima DC nigga i get major dome, loyal to the game the rocknation been good to me"

-Alley Boy's!!!!!!! leaders of the roc nation

all black everythang

lol what cha kno bout it!

thats my new saying i think ive been sayin it too everythang said to me

anyway final tommorow gotta finish studyin jus needed a break from the books...what cha know bout it?!?

LMAO

O yea heres the video for my mafuckin shit Kid Cudi

"Pursuit of Happiness"

o yea n here go nicki minaj photoshoot...all i can say is yea buddy!

-Alley E

Before i forget

In case yall been livin under a rock Gucci Mane debut album was released today so niggas gon get ur money right bitches gon get ur money rite so yall can listen to the CD n find new facebook status' n names for facebook LMAO!!!!
Heres the Cd Cover and track list if ur interested I already coped hemm yestaday so im gud its pretty gud not to impressed but mayb i gotta listen to it more and ill see how i feel about it after a week...but i aint think it was gon b dat murder kill bill shit lik the mixtapes more commerical shit lik obesssed n shit lol

and heres the wasted remix i never heard it till lik last week n i gotta say gucci went in on this mafucka...yall can peep heem

And i creamateded it! LMAO gucci u a fool for dis one fool!

01 Classical (Intro)
02 Interlude: Toilet Bowl Shawty/Mike Epps
03 Heavy
04 Stupid Wild ft. Lil Wayne & Cam’Ron
05 All About The Money ft. Rick Ross
06 Lemonade
07 Bingo ft. Soulja Boy Tell’Em & Waka Flocka Flame
08 Spotlight ft. Usher
09 I Think I’m In Love ft. Jason Caesar
10 Bad Bad Bad ft. Keyshia Cole
11 Interlude: Toilet Bowl Shawty/Mike Epps
12 Sex In Crazy Places ft. Bobby V, Nicki Minaj & Trina
13 The Movie
14 Volume ft. Wooh Da Kid
15 Gingerbread Man ft. OJ Da Juiceman
16 Wasted ft. Plies
17 Kush Is My Cologne ft. Bun B, Devin the Dude & E-40
18 Worst Enemy
19 Interlude: Toilet Bowl Shawty/Mike Epps
20 Wasted (Remix)

-Alley E

*ps for u broke mafuckas ill post the download link so u can at least own the cd n u wont be completely out the loop...WIT YA BROKE ASS!!! LMAO

The Carter Documentary

So i got my hands on the sundance documentary on lil wayne alil while ago u may rememeber me posting the trailer, but heres the full documentary. In case yall aint kno wen they release this movie its supposed to be selling for 19.99 a pop. WTF is sundance thinkin dis shit needa b free. Word on the street is the documentary was cut short, in a the first couple seconds it says he withdrew from finishing the documentary, there are numerous rumors about y...i heard it could be anythang from him n his court situations to how they portrayed him in the movie. IDK n IDC fareal but its good as far as i could see. Now enjoy...

-Alley E

Sounds lik a love song!

BMW sick as fuck take this bitch to the vet n check her pulse n put her in the ER!

Wow I think i love her BUR! lol
o yea heres sum good old jay for yall hope yall downloaded that j cole joint and ummm im outtie!

"A face of stone, was shocked on the other end of the phone
Word back home is that you had a special friend
So what was oh so special then?
You have given away without gettin at me
That's your fault, how many times you forgiven me?
How was I to know that you was plain sick of me?
I know the way a nigga livin was whack
But you don't get a nigga back like that!
Shit I'm a man with pride, you don't do shit like that
You don't just pick up and leave and leave me sick like that
You don't throw away what we had, just like that"
-Song Cry by Jay Z

-Alley E

Dope Cd Cover

I fuck wit this CD cover hard as shit its dope as fuck and the concept on it is cool as hell. Mayb cuz im stuck on dis adam and eve concept. smell me street fam? So here's 88-keys mixtape "Death of Adam" kinda old mixtape so i forgot to blog about it its pretty dope i'll see if i can scope up the link for it but no promises lol.

Anyway i dont really fuck wit the internet but bitches be on it lik nicorate stuck to they arm lik ciggarettes, are you really fuckin dat much you aint meet a real nigga"
-Kanye West ft. Common, Tablib Kawli i forget the name of the song but im not sure if those are the accurate lyrics either lol.
O yea on another note idk if yall peeped that new Varsity jacket from Supreme [bitch] lol but it goes hard as fuck i gotta get my bread up...
peep heem

can you say dope as jacket man im tryin tell u id fuck em up wit these joint here
Anyway game day so we bouta get it in! Beer, tree, n family affairs. Yall fuckin wit it find me if you can lol...

-Alley E
O yea for my cuzzo keep ya head up we not even worried bout dem ova niggas we gettin money over here what da fuck dey doin?
laugh n smoke tree about!
We spazin out all wild n crazy LMAO!

Back to the Future

I wrote a whole blog about how im feelin bout my current situations but i jus erased the whole thing and decided im not gon post bout her no more, she has her own blog and im not gon worry bout sum1 who aint worried bout me. Ima jus post the things that i like or catch my attention, and pictures from my daily adventures. Hope yall still follow me n read my shit.
Anyway with the release of the flu games, it made me wana cop sum 12's real bad so i coped a pair of retro 12's...they need sum attention and work so im bringin em back to life and will post the pics of the reconstruction.
heres the flu games rite here...

in case your wondering y there called the flu games in 1997 MJ played a playoff game against the Utah Jazz scoring 38 points with the flu. can you say dedicated? anywho here they are...

here's my retros that i will be reconstructing

Got my work cut out for myself lol
Also CD in the disc changer today Paper Trail by TI...love this CD
Song to Enjoy: No Matter What [official video]

-Alley E

*brushed my teeth today, hope yall do to*

your enemies hate to see you smile

As promised as a side note...

Heres the link to the J Cole mixtape i blogged about earlier.
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=PNTSCNHX

Go ahead and check it out and download the cd and enjoy yall.

Also on a sidenote what is it about people n their weaknesses? What makes people either cant say no or feel bad wen they do say no? I dont really lik sayin no to people ebut i dont hesitate to. I hide everythang so its pretty hard to tell whether im in a good standing or a bad standing but normally wen im lifted im on a balanced feelin. I feel betta then i do at my low points but i aint necesarily at my high points. Prolly wen ull c my smiles sneak out and run away as soon as they came.

i watched as she looked at me today and i could see that she sees how much everythang she does hurts me. Tried to explain y she doesnt want me to go but for sum reason i feel lik it shuldnt hold any weight but sumhow it does. Everythang thats ever happen she have made be like fuck it n move one lik a usually do but sumthang holds me back despite what i hear n how she slam lies to me. Almost lik she has no conscience. what kanye say...lost his haert to a woman so heartless...but im the "heartbreak nigga" right? Anyway J cole cd im really fuckin wit it its on in my car now n its bouta play while i hit this L...

-Heartbreak Erik???

The Warm Up

Yo wats gud world so its now 11:43 i been up since 7:30am I been on moves all morning but i aint tired actually kinda glad i got up early. Cuz today seem lik a new day. Before i went to sleep last nite I prayed. I kno its out my character to pray before i go to sleep but i asked God to show me the way. Show me who's real and who's fake. Show me the people who here for me and the people who here for the ride. Never fails i see the light! Lol Im really feeling good wit my new start im doin a new everythang nowaday new number, new focus, new perspective at these bitches, n hopefully a new location out cali u smell me fool? But today I got dat J-Cole mixtape in case you dont kno who C-Jole is he is one of the new artist on rockafella. Da nigga is nice tho so if you not wit it get wit it or get left behind like my past! But i like the mixtape's name "The Warm Up" lol culdnt have dropped this mixtape at a better time u smell me! Cuz for these past 19yrs i just been getting warmed up! Now its time to show the world what i got and make these clown ass niggas n bitches mad cuz dey missed the train. My cuzzin use to tell me theres a reason people didnt make it to your future. I told him its cuz dey culdnt make the cut! wasnt tough enuff. But success is never promised and u gotta work for it so here i am working for everythang i hav and get. Nuttin handed to me and rely on my own shit nobody else shit. So 2010 im ready for you. O n case u were wonderin blogspot....

YES AYE E IS BACK...but now he's ALLEY E dey gave me a new name round da way so ima run wit a new name too.

-Alley E

ps. i will post the link to download the J Cole mixtape later tonight once i post it up there.

o yea i brushed my teeth for em n i hope dey did too before they kiss da baby

No dollars so you make no sense!

Yo world so today i decided to post one more song from Wale CD Attention Deficit and thats the song contemplate. I know somebody out there gon feel this song on sum real shit. Whether you da one wondering or the "drunk and hot gurl" lol. I like how the song feels no bull, wish i wasnt in tune wit the song but i am so fuck it. Heres the song and the lyrics are posted below if you dont wana listen but you should listen to the song and read the lyrics that way you understand the song more...smell me fool?

Who am I living for'

Is this my limit'
Can I Endure some more'
Chances are giving
Questions existing
Hey sweetheart, wassup boo
whatchu up to'
more club moves'
i call her, no answer
her phone in the bag, she dancing
its four now, the clubs over
i call her, but oh hold up
yall know what' ignore button
or the phone die, thats less hope for it'
that damier bag i bought her
caught the attention of those niggas on it
that cellphone that i bought
is probably filled with some other niggas numbers
so it leads me to wonder
why do i still promise to love her'
cut me off every time im talking
which means she ain't never hear nothing
i say "stay", she wanna leave
she get her point across so i gotta let her be
ima let her be by herself in peace
but five years from now i bet she see
when the club gets played
the things you crave are no longer escapes
and no longing for dates
you want a husband, but no one has a cape
now you wonder and wait
and i aint trying to hear what you wanting to say
it feels good to be over you, babe
so play this shit while you contemplate,

contemplate,

contemplate
so play this shit while you contemplate
so play this shit while you contemplate
Who am I living for'
Is this my limit'
Can I endure some more'
Chances are giving
Questions existing
Who am I living for'
Is this my limit'
Can I endure some more'
Chances are giving
them people, they talking
them lights, they on me
this life i chose
but i aint know, til i found it
to be honest, im modest
one hater for every nigga on it
one day everybody is applauding
the next day you is everybody target
why bother' why talk to em'
where God at' i need to call Him
my knees on the ground, Dear Father
don't let me break, please make me stronger
how much longer, will it linger'
well my heart is giving will they believe it
when my song is over will they need me'
watch how quickly they find a new leader
questioning the whole meaning
in the viper room with just me and river phoenix
with courtney love and late washington
with a note there and im thinking of reading
this aint her, chris benoit
heath ledger said the nights gonna be dark
feel the size of a fellas how ima know
apollo theater i might just not go
franky lymon the lime light gets old
cold so in a while im schitzo
i cant cope, i cant think
i cant breathe, this aint me
this aint easy, im thinking
am i doing this for them or me'
i cant think, am i doing this for them or me'
Who am I living for'
Is this my limit'
Can I endure some more'
Chances are giving
Questions existing
Who am I living for'
Is this my limit'
Can I endure some more'
Chances are giving
Questions existing

Also on a side note i wana address these mafuckas who sayin dey made me. Leme start by sayin aint none of you mafuckas make me shit if anythang i made a lot of yall niggas cuz u'da thought i was one of yall tongues da way i stay in yall mouths man. I hear bitches say nobody would know who i am if i didnt talk to them...bitch kiss da baby wit that shit in case yall bitches forgot i was always wit more den one bitch and i was knockin hoes down lik laila ali. So lets not forgot u cant tie me to any of yall bitches yall damn sure wasnt the ones puttin in work lik i was, but hey yall mouths got me more bodies as ur scandolous friends would line up to fuck me after yall said yall two cents about my game. and dez niggas know wats up try me get more den a E for effort on sum real shit. I got sum hot shit for you and deres no games round my way. which is y round my way dey call me a Southeast savage.

I brushed my teeth for yall, and i made my bitch do da same so wen u smile i make her smile back

Fuck yall lol

-Alley E

Day Dreaming Again

Yo world the one thing about people who have made a successful life and live happy dream big. I always day dream. If there's a chance or a thought pops in my head i always jus run wit it because theres no telling what you can pull from that dream and apply to life. Most of my drawings come from day dreams. I sumtimes picture a place so nice that i cant physically draw it but i can paint a picture perfect inmy mind. I tend to believe you cant set limitations on your dreams. And the music calms me down. I usually sit on my computer and let my itunes run on shuffle and listen closely and enjoy. The one thing that really makes me feel good is music i can relate to. Makes me feel lik im not the only one goin thru the things i go thru. ITs kinda crazy how sum1 u neva meet or know can feel the exact same way as you. God works in mysterious ways fareal. But for every thing i feel was bad that happen to me, my bestfriend said dat when God closes a door he opens a window, and maybe the window aint on the first floor but mayb the second but you cant jus sit and wait for it. I kinda feel lik there is no such thing as destiny. Nothing is promised to you except death. So in my eyes we make our own destiny. We make our own choices and we sleep in our own beds after we make em. People always tell you to neva bottle your emtions...what choice do you have wen u dont litter and theres no where to pour it out though? I can remember days wen my shit was down and out i wuld fareal be hurt n no matter what time it was u got up. I also rememeber a time where even though u may not have been there exactly at the time i needed u u made it an effort to make up for it. Its kinda funny how the table's have kinda turned on that. I mean sumtimes i look and im jus confused at such a beautiful diaster. Call her that because everythang that she has goin is clouded by insecurities that shuldn't b an issue, which may sumtimes hold her back from showing how good of a person she is. Though not to me anymore, she does go over and beyond for the people she cares about. As long as you a friend or brotha or sista you good! boyfriend....not so much lol. jus playin but mayb the time we had that made us close was because of a situation where you really couldnt be out. MAyb if that never happen we prolly wuldnt hav ever been that close. It sumwhat amuses me wen i read her blogs or twitter. I look at her post n realize this gurl has no idea what she wants lol. She wants to go left but went right and is no contemplating on turnin back to go left. Those were the times. But its past n now is memories. she gets mad wen she reads my blog. cuz she knows how i think so she prolly figures out where im goin before she gotten to the first sentence. sometimes she doesnt lik my thoughts and how i feel about things but respects em nonetheless i guess. you wana talk day dreams, naw you dont wana talk that. I got day dreams to alot include u to. but in mine im not ur bestfriend...

-Alley E

Diary

yo world so i gotta admit i aint fuck wit Wale at first but after listenin to his cd im fuckin wit cuzzin @ first i thought this cd was gon be all about the city and how he from the city but it filled with real shit and today i popped the cd in and went to my favorite songs from the CD...but one im feelin today is Diary ft. Marsha Ambrosius. IDK if you ever heard it but the audio is posted below for your listening enjoyment and sum lyrics that i like from the song are listed to and a link to download the Wale CD Attention Deficit.

If I told you I wanted to talk to you, you know
you'd think I'm tryin' to holler at you
And maybe I am, but you wouldn't hear me out anyways would you?

Rather lose love than to move on never knowin' what it feels like
Short days, long nights by the phone, no call
Need a clear mind cuz I been blind got me goin down that road
Heart made of stone
Far away from home,
Black woman c-c-cold
Every problem that you ever had with another man, i gotta face
Started off on thin ice i'm still here but i can't skate
Slow sink, can't breathe
No remorse, don't think
Listen to your friend,
Get another man for a minute then repeat
Queen,
You deserve the title
But she rejects what i give
While she nurse the wounds by them
Tried them, didn't work
Got impossible standards,
Nothin' I do's gonna work
Diary of a black girl
Fuck wit this first verse so hard i hope yall read and see...

But please know i got sunshine on a rainy day and sticks and stones may break my bones but words, niggas, haters, and bitches dont hurt me

but dey can either love me or leave me alone but either way ima be a problem for yall

while i sing bitches aint shit bitches aint shit dey b on knees suckin all dez niggas dicks...

well...mine first lol

-Alley E
here's the link to download the whole CD
http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=ca34db4b1b0d36d8a0f2f20c509059d999e9941c 74098f9ca7b01fe6e4055ae3

U ever get the feeling...?

Yo world sumtimes wen i look at things in my life i sumtimes get the feelings lik ive been gettin doped and tricked alot. I normally am not that quick to believe things until ive heard from mutiple sources that are reliable. I typically feel lik people see as me as someone im not. people call me popular i consider myself a loaner. some people swear i dig gurls out all da time but i was raised but a woman dat aint me. wateva people may believe about me a lot of times people underestimate da lil people who really fuck wit hard and kno people. Theres a sayin that i lik its...

"All things down in the dark shall come to the light"

One thing i believe about myself is that i can keep it 100. Alot of people fuck wit me cuz i keep it 100. Not everybody agrees wit how i feel but they can understand it. I respect people that keep it 100. People lik that get the best of me. And ive always been the type of person that if i fuck wit u hard den if im eatin everybody eatin. Jus the way i am. Anybody dat know me kno that if i got it dey got it to. Im not sweet for it neither so dont think that at all but if u need me to get u out da way i do dat. Sumtimes people take my kindness for a weakness and try me. I can tell u now that's not a gud idea, never has been and never will be. Sometimes i wonder how my life got the way it did. Not complainin but thats jus the way it is. My childhood was the best. MY high school days were good i wuldnt change too much but a couple thangs. but u cant live wit regrets i guess so fuck it. Nowadays i wuld change alot fareal nd i hate that i have to say that but i would. I hada talk wit one of my x's da ova day she told me that im a one of a kind person and to be wit me you gotta be a one and a kind gurl. She said she knows she isnt her cuz she cant handle the lifestyle i live. Very fast paced and alot of attention. She said the gurl who does get me whoa to her and a hats off...i laughed about it cuz i kind see it as true. I have a different mind as i like to believe then most. I can look past alot of things n bring the gud out of sumbody. Even though sum of my x's blow me i fuck wit em hard, cuz dey all kno me well. Each in they own special way. Wen i need sumthang i always kno i can call on em. A lot of yall looked out for me this summer wen i anigga aint have a job and sumtimes a place to stay well jus one but naw mean. but with each of them i culd feel where they let me down. Each one worse den the other but still yall get love from me. Even though naw yall fuck wit the skeeches that use to occupy yall nite ime lol but yall still fuck wit me. Seem lik no matter how wrong i did yall yall still had my back. alot of yall got my highest honor. ecept a few some of yall can eat a AIDS dick. but sumtimes i listen to what people tell me cuz i know one thing if i dont kno anythang else...and that is people talk. But if u dont give em sumthang to talk bout den ur jus another person dey kno. And people are famous for word of mouth, so wen i do say thing to sumbody please kno that i kno more then you think i kno, i do my research and get facts(names, dates, how yall met, etc) I know u think im stupid but i was born at night not las nite nigga. But hey he got his stello back and he back lik he never left. pics from da club will be cummin soon to a facebook near you! lol

-alley E

Brush Your Teeth

Yo wats gud world I jus got off the fone wit my brotha, weneva im goin thru alot besides the L's we put up i lik talkin to my brotha cuz he put shit in perspective for me. I look up to my brother, both of em. Both them niggas is on dey shit one's graduated college and out here doin his thang trying branch out and leave the nest and my ova brotha man dat nigga 22 bout graduate this yr. Even though out the family its always been Vaugh with the ignorant jokes and comments that make sense so you cant be made at wahat he said, Mike the insightful deep thought nigga lol, and me the train wreck who makes all the messes and the older brothers gotta clean everythang up. He told me one thing that stuck to me lik a fly trap. He said that " No matter what you do, you can't make anyone love you, and you can love someone but not like them. People may say they love you but as soon as thangs go left niggas jump ship, people point fingers, people leave you behind, and people judge every move you make. He told me you shuld never let people get you worked up, cuz anger and being upset is a waste of energy and he right. I been mad all day bout everythang goin on but i did a have a good hour or two where i did laugh and joke around and time flew by and i felt different. He said you jus ignore the dumb shit and the dumb shit people do and say cuz nuffin makes someone more mad then wen you ignore there attempts to bring you down to there level. Im on the right path cuz here i am in skool, workin, and livin my life. I stop for nuffin and my brotha said he kno me better den that and want me to get back up on my shit. both my brothas are disappointed i let all this dumb ass shit with other people get me bent outta shape...niggas die, bitches cry, niggas lie, bitches lie thats jus how the story goes, but tell em kiss the babies and swallow slow...Fuck yall niggas tryin bring a nigga down and the niggas who aint helpin my situation. But where casting for the "Alley E Show" we hada cut sum more cast memebers and were lookin for replacements smell me lol awww man my life your entertainment, so leme give yall some more to look and read about.
-Alley E
I brushed my teeth for these hoes n niggas so they can see my smile!

Family affair

As i look thru the pictures of all the days where we could jus chill up in da alley smoke tree n drink 38 till we throw up over and over again...I sit here and think about every nigga i ever lost.

Amp: 36th n minnesota I remember the first day i meet you cuz. Remember we was behind the laundry mat up 19th, and we hit dat L together? Had me gone off that shit. I was a young nigga at that time too that was 07 son, crzy right? I lost you in 08 never forget wen black hit my fone and said some coward ass niggas took your life son...

Phil: 19th n minnesota son how many days was we goin at it? everytime we saw each ova we argued...Who get the most bitches? who got more bodies? man who fresher? Damn son we wasnt even all dat close but i fuck wit you hard. Rememeber dem niggas try fake on lil travis b4 he got locked up? Remember how you had dat nigga back and you jus met dat nigga lik a couple hrs b4? u a trill ass nigga n i fuck wit you bayboy.

Song: Bday buddy forever! born the same day i rememeber wen u sent me that friend request after i met you at the gogo cuz you dont give your number out unless its business rite? lol man you kill me rememeber the bday freestyles hada do it bigga each yr. You showed these bitches how to be a lady and how to carry urself in the gogo. I thank you for dat babygurl we love you and miss you. I rode past where them niggas crashed your shit n took you away from us....damn i still cant believe you gone.

Adrian: Young Money nigga dont play that! Real ass nigga son i rememeber the first day we meet up high school. Swear you was a man of few words but wen u did speak it was important as fuck dog. You was a baller and i respected dat. Even though we aint always see eye to eye we still did our thang. Remember the 06 tunnel days back wen mob was runnin shit? tob first came out n i use to stay sayin I"M TRYIN BOUNCE SOMETHING! n "AWW SHIT". Remember how dis bitches use to go for all us? We was wasted every weekend in fuckin da gogo up as long as you was feelin gud enuff to go. I cried hard as fuck at your funneral son.

Each and everyone of yall i miss yall crazy i aint gon sit here n rant for every nigga i ever lost but the ones i miss most watch down on me and keep me from harms way ya'll. I love yall and ima make yall proud i guess you can say i miss yall a lil bit...I miss u a lil bit more everyday.

Love yall niggas

-Alley E

Funny to me LOL

We Ballin Bitches Eatin yall food leavin dishes LOL...

Hater by Jay Z ft. Kanye West

-Alley E

Say Whats Real

So as im sittin here replaying my life in my head everythang i remember what made me and broke me what things made me laugh, sad, happy, etc. I talked to one of my friends da ova day who told me i wear my emtions on my sleeve. She said told me when im upset its pretty obvious cuz im realy standoffish and i always have this look that jus reads fuck off. But they can always tell wen im in a good mood cuz i smile. The funny thing was that her and some ova people were talking and dey asked her y i dont smile, i didnt really like her answer but i guess mayb thats true. she said "his smiles are like a orange moon if u dont catch this one you'll be waiting for awhile before the next one." After us talkin bout me for hours and anyone who knows me knows i dont lik to discuss what im doin, ill update you plz dont ask ur own questions cuz i hate explainin myself. I dont think people will see eye to eye with me, i like being my own person and being one of a kind. I really do feel like im one of a kind. Nobody else is lik me, and i pride myself on that. Well im still loudpacked up and ready for class but i just wanted to get this up before class. Through everythang in my life ive had some real bad and real good as times, the point of this post is to appreciate the things that come and go in your life, but never miss oppurtunities. Cuz u never know what could be n you fail 100% of the time you dont try and yea im trying be successful and i got a list of shit to get done and im checkin something off everyday and look out for a life changing post (for me) if everythang falls thru as i need it to there mayb a new location that alley E will be posting from. I hope it comes through cuz a nigga needa get the fuck outta dodge!

-Alley E

pumpkin eater

Ima start this quote with one of the funniest things i heard today...its a dirty joke tho so dont be offended and if u r...

O Well...

Fuck You...

"A man who never wears pants can never be caught with his pants down."

So im feelin pretty gud today, im flying with pigeons so im on cloud 9 loudpackin lik 212's.

I have had this question in my head all weekend n all week...

"what makes people cheat?"

Wen i was cummin up in the game i use to cheat lik no tommorow but den i stopped but wen i was doin it i wuld always tell gurls u dont wana b wit me u shuld rethink ur priorities if u think u wana b wit me lol...

i knew i was bad news wen i got that first piece of ass from my 1st.

But fareal if i felt lik i aint wan b wit sum1 i wuld constantly let em kno but if i said i really liked sum1 not jus during sex but fareal outside of bedroom n im not tryin knock boots wit her i ment it. My man was talkin to me bout his x who cheated on him and its almost a yr ago they was together for lik 3 yrs it still cut him deep. Bitches played me too before i but i aint never really care but it still hurt my pride smell me. But that shit cut niggas deep n it cut gurls 1000x's worse. Jus curious, and even wen people start movin on people feel a certain way towards them. Shuld jus keep it 100 u neva kno how people gonna react but cheating ummm im pretty sure i still got sum in the chamber for both of em...

Kiss da babies wit dat shit...

-alley E

Carter Boy!!!!!

Yo world here is the trailer for the lil wayne documentary now to me it looks lik a bunch of clips of him talkin shit, blazin louud packs, n sippin lean...

where do i sign up? lol

O wait you thought this post was for you carter? naw not this time lol mayb next time lol

but before i go i said CARTER BOY!!!!

-Alley E

I mean...

I know it's been a while,
Sweetheart, we hard-ly talk, I was doing my thing
I know I was foul bay-bay,
A-bay late-ly you been all on my brain,
And if somebody would've told me a month ago
Fronting though, yo I wouldn't wanna know
If somebody would've told me a year ago
It'd go, get this difficult
Feeling like Katrina with no fema
Like Martin with no Gina
Like a flight with no visa
First class with the seat back I still see ya
In my past, you on the other side of the glass
Of my memory's museum,
I'm just saying, Hey Mona Lisa,
Come home you know you can't Rome without Caesar

Flashing Lights by Kanye West

Da craziest thing right now for me is where my mind is. My shit so fucked it dont make sense. I got alot on my brain and i really feel betrayed fareal. Sometimes i just wish I stayed to myself all my life. I cant stand when people be frontin in front of your face but be real secret and keep shit quite, and mislead people. ONE THING I CANT STAND IS WHEN PEOPLE DONT KEEP SHIT 100!!!! Lik if i feel that ur lying to me i probably wont trust you again. It seem lik the more people you meet the more faker mafuckas you meet. ITs funny cuz fakeness is a disease worse then swine flu, h1n1, nomonia, etc. all combined. People catch dat lik wildfire. Believe me if u wonderin in ya head if im talkin bout you...

YES I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm fareal mad and upset rite now, like when i read some shit i jus be like young you wonder y i dont answer your calls or texts? I was born at nite but it wasnt last nite. I try not to let others get me out my character but it be so hard not to kirk fareal. Especially people have no idea what to say to me nowadays cuz im completely on edge. Mafuckas thought i was a ticking time bomb before you dont even wana kno how im feelin rite now, im fareal liable to beat a nigga ass for askin me the time, while i got 4 watches and my cell phone in plain veiw. Man fuck mankind, dez bitches, n ya da mothers who birthed these cowards!

-Alley E

Trey Songs-Invented Sex

-Aye E

Sucker Free

"I cant promise that i'll change who i am but ill promise to become a better person"

This phrase sums up everythang im feelin right now. I look at myself and i kno im not perfect, sorry that im not. But in the bible it says "he who hath no sin cast the first stone." funny how alot of niggas still tryin sneak and throw stones, knowin dey got more sins den me. I kno what i am and what im not and i use to lose alot of sleep cuz i culdnt understand y people so quick to hang me for my mistakes and never acknowledge my good deeds. I guess what good you do is expected so people over look it and jus hold you to the wrongs you've comitted and its funny how they never let it go. Dont say you forgive someone if you really dont. but at the same time you cant hold a grudge cuz in the end you jus hurtin urself, wastin ur own energy. People hate to see you happy, and love to see you frown. I kno alot of people real happy wit me rite now cuz a nigga down and out but dont worry mafuckas im cummin back for the fisrt time lik ludacris and ima make sumthang happen. Funny thing is watch how mafuckas gon tryfuck wit me when im happy n doin good. Its always lik dat aint it people aint around during the storm but quick to fuck wit u on a sunny day. HAHAHAHA! Killin em softly is what ill do then. But i got a smile on my face though! So here i am world hate a nigga who livin his life!

"Shit I'm going through it, Ma dukes too, tears stramin down her pretty face she got her palms too it, my life is getting to wild, i needa bring some sort of calm too it, im bouta lose it, my niggas screamin dont do it"

This Cant be Life by Jay Z

-Aye E

Either Love Me or Leave Me Alone

While I'm watchin every nigga watchin me closely
my shit is butter for the bread they wanna toast me
I keep my head, both of them where they supposed to be
Hoes'll get you sidetracked then clap from closed feet

-Can I Live by Jay Z

I wish i could possibly write down exactly how i feel right now, i wish i could show you had bad it hurts. I've followed and tried to walk after you in pretty much aspect. I guess lik always i dont measure up too what you want me to be so u have no hope for me. Love clearly is blind, you cant really see the bad from a person until its pointed out to you. I try my best to be the best i can be but i know i fall short in a handful of things but its no reason to down me, or say i won't amount to much. In case you didnt know u did bring me to tears, as ashmed as i am to say it you did. I really cant understand people and how the human being works, probably never will =/. Unfortunatly when things get thick everythang else thats happens seems 100x's worse. But I told myself i'd keep looking at the glass hall full but now im thinkin ill look at the glass a quarter full. My mind is completely destroyed. Everythang i use to care about i don't care about anymore. I have hit a serious point of "who gives a fuck?" I hate that im here but i can't help but feel like that. Everybody always tells me you know i got your back E, or I'm here for you E. But I dont even listen when people say that too me. When people tell me they love me I typically dont reply cuz i dont feel like that many people truely love me. I feel as though they love who I am, or what i can do for them, or what i do for them. When people say i love you i kind of have make a "sure your right" face unintenally but its because i dont feel as though people know what that means. I actually prefer people to not say that to me. And if im not that close to you when you say it to me thats y i jus reply back "lol", but then again another reason y i dont believe in saying i love you, because jus because i make you laugh or cheer u up do you love me. People who are closer to me i have no problem asking them not to say that to me. I've truely stopped answering my fone today and yesterday. I accepted a few minor calls but that was only 3calls which where pretty important. Not speaking with people today actually made me feel better as my day went on. I try to keep my faith and not lose trust in the human race but i cant help but feel like "fuck ya'll." I've gotten alot of inspiration for my artwork since my mind isn't really focused on the things it should be. It kind of tickles me that the people who claim to know me, care about me, "love me" <----(LMMFAO) cant even see how dead i am inside. just because i'm breathing and walking doesnt mean im still alive inside. I really feel nuffin bout anythang I havent eaten but some mcdonalds today. I didnt smoke today either. I dont have the urge to do anythang. All my goals and aspirations have really become meaningless. I know this post is going to be followed by alot of "keep ya head up" response's and "i hop ethings get better for you" response's and etc. but im not tryin hear that. A couple post ago i asked God can i live, but i guess not because i still feel lik im at rockbottom again. The thing that's crazy is how long it took me to get "happy" and how fast it was torn down. Pompii was built in a matter of yrs but was destroyed in a few hours, correct? So its safe to say that somethings can ruin your life and theres nothing you can do about it. You try your best to avoid misfortunes but destiny is pretty much set in stone, and you cant cheat mother nature or death. But you can aid them in your downfall. Today while i sat @ the park stareing at my surroundings, i watched a brother and sister and their cuzzin play on the playground...dere lil smiles and happiness made me smile, it brought a tear again to me, as i watched their mothers pick them up and chase them around and watch the kids have fun. I cant understand how my life went from up there to down here...rockbottom. I can feel myself finding artistic inspiration every second. Today i started to draw a picture of a boy holding a gurl crying as they both sit on the floor. I took two pictures, one of a street where all the trees where changing colors and the street was empty and another of a puddle after a raindrop hit it. Pictures make me smile, i love to see beautiful things or happiness. Seeing those things gives me my second wind in life. IT keep sme from jumpin off the edge. the craziest thing is how my smile can fool you so easily. I'm not sure if i lost faith in the human race, if i did it wasnt intentional but what can i say shit happens i guess. I jus got an idea that i had to put to paper before i couldnt picture it anymore. This post is taking way longer than expected maybe because im focusing on so much different shit rite now, multitasking i guess. Today i went to see one of my friends and update him on current problems. After talking to him and telling him what happen and all the details of my downs he was brought to tears and tried to raise my spirits, although i consider him one of my bestfriends i jus didnt believe anythang he said. Its hard for me to accept a compliament, im pretty use to hearing people complain about this and that about me, people do that a lot and im not surprised, but then those same people who down me for who im not they try to build me up...

Come on G...Dont gas me up, I like driving on E...

Right now i think my artwork is gon be pumping out like lil wayne mixtapes, just not alot of the same shit. I always need inspiration to be artistic, but i never feel the need to actually be artistic until im in a bad mood. Im sure some people gon b offended by this post and i know ima see alot more "o so what you dont fuck wit me no more" text's. Crazy huh. Im kinda glad my fone doesnt ring alot anymore, i dont lik a lot of activity on my fone, texts are cool but phone calls and picture msgs n shit i cant deal with and irratate me. Idk y though...but i typed more then enuff. You know i sumtimes feel lik i shuldnt open up lik this in public but i still post im not a perosn who opens up to people im pretty secret about myself. I dont lik people really knowin to much about me, i dont let people read the things in my fone, i dont let people look at my fone, i dont tell people whats going on, if u dont read my blog den u dont know probably. but mayb tommorow will be a better day?

-Aye E

O what you dont fuck wit me no more?!?

Yo wats gud world yo i felt the need to post this post so mafuckas can get me crystal clear and understand. Lik on sum real shit the next person who texts my fone, write on my fb wall, or call me sayin how i dont call them, or check up on them, or etc. gon get they shit kirked on no bullshit. You people kill me, its probablya reason y i dont text, or call ur fone. Beside the fact 9 times out of 10 if my fone rings or i get a text its sumbody askin me for sumthang whether it be money, information, a ride, etc. And da last time majority of yall talk to me was cuz i hit u up last. Den dey got the nerve to tell me i changed. NAw im jus lookin out for me, i aint got time to cater to everybody problems especially cuz after yall get wateva yall need from me i dont hear from yall until da next time i hear from you, or i hit u up and u busy so u gotta hit me lata n lata happens to be wen u need sumthang? Fuck is up wit that? I told myself today dat i aint bouta b tryin cool wit mafuckas n im gon b on sum serious no text/call answerin shit. Niggas n bitches fareal cowards, and its crazy my lil man hit me up dis his 3rd yr in high school, and he lik sum gurl dat he been talkin to for a couple months and said he started fallin for her. Said she got him outta charcter, doin shit he dont do but she dont even hit his fone lik dat unless she wana do sumthang, but if he call her n ask her to do sumthang she always got an excuse y she cant...he said she even will be round his way n wont even hit his fone to cum past n see him. I told him she jus not dat into u and to stop while he was ahead. Cuz it aint no path he wana go down. Its funny how gurls chant n live by fuck niggas n niggas aint shit, but wen a nigga on dey shit n fareal doin it up for a bitch, dat bitch typically play a nigga. Mayb niggas needa start gettin ugly ass bitches cuz at least dem bitches wait on ur hand n foot. cuz it seem lik u pretty bitches is straight ruthless. Someone once told me da only relationship u need is wit God, he wont let u down n will listen to u all da time. Well im still talkin and aint nuffin change. I decided to day that i wuldnt be going to eat thanksgivin or christmas wit my "family". I really jus wana b loaner, always by myself and not openin up wit people cuz people nowadays is off sum ova shit n im on to the next one...
You ain't did nothin I ain't did, nigga pay homage
or pay the doctor, I sprayed Lami's
Still, the time'll reveal, you know I'm bein honest
Ya ain't put my coat yet and I keep my shit in coat check
They say the truth shall come to the light
So everybody grab your chains cause your boy that bright

-Aye E

Can I Live

It aint like i aint tell you from day one i aint shit

Wen it comes to relationships i dont have the patience

no its too late we have a lil life together

in my mind i really want you to be my wife forever

but in the physical its lik im gon be triffe forever

a different gurl every nite forever

...

Gina please dont love me...

-Soon You'll Understand by Jay Z

Yo world wats good I woke up this morning thought of your face and smiled as i texted goodmorning and wiped the sleep out my eyes. Small kiss u gave me last nite i can still taste on my lips this morning. shower's coming soon, breakfast is unknown in this household so im straight hustlin and bustin my ass before class to finihs a mini-project i left to do before i got to class today. Court went terrible i have to pay the damn ticket cuz my officer was the only officer to show up to court while everybody else went free because the officer didnt show. WTF? oh well you live and you learn, to bad i didnt learn shit cuz i still speed mafucka be runin late ya smell me? So i was thinkin as i walk through the mall yestaday and looking up at the sky through the sky windows, I wonder if God was looking at me, i was wonderin what he thought of me as he looked at me. Sometimes i wish i could ask him some questions and he fareal reply back and answer those questions, but then i guess u have a unfair advantage if u ask him questions. so i'm tryin live but niggas keep tryin me, gotta learn to keep my cool and stay calm and collected cuz im already a fool wit perspective. I gotta learn how to pick and choose my battles cuz it seem lik i get myself in alot of trouble that could be avoided, by jus lettin niggas be niggas cuz i kno i dont gotta prove myself to these "up and coming" niggas. My cuzzin Spaz told me she couldnt lose me, i made a promise to myself she would neva have to worry bout it so here i am tryin live...but i dont wana jus live i wana live my life to the limit and love it alot.

So God please dont be mad at my decesions, or my moves i make, jus understand i wana be me, you know me better then any1 else, and you kno my good out weighs the bad so please forgive me for my sins wen we meet.

So can i live?

-Aye E

strong ass lil kid

yo world i saw dis on youtube and was like wtf!?! dis lil mafucka can prolly kcik my ass lol...
Dey call him the lil incredible hulk...
i aint never seen now spanish mafucka dis strong

make a nigga be lik i gotta step it up in da gym lol

-Aye E

Wasted by Lil Weezy

He's back show em how to do it weezy Jay made da blueprint and you built the carter boy!

I make my bitch cum first! haha den i arrive later!!! sound familiar?
Bitch its goin down like the catalina wine mixer!!! are u serious???
We fine nigga like amber rose???
yep dats my girlfriend yep dats my
GIIIIRRRRLLLLLFRRRIIIEEEENNNNDDD

now time to get wasted babyboy catch E if u can

strofoam cups wit pink drink lik a bitch pussy

sip dat while i blow blunts

keep up haters

cowards eat a dick

-Aye E

You jus cant replace me

Her face was stoned with shock on the other end of the fone

word back home was you hada a special friend

so wat was so special then

you have givin away witout gettin at me

thats ya boy

how many times you forgivin me

how was i to know u was plain sick of me

I know da way a nigga was livin was wack

but you dont get a nigga back lik dat

ima man wit pride you dont do shit like

you dont jus pick up and leave and leave me sick like that

you dont throw away what we had just like dat...

-Song Cry by Jay Z

Sometimes we never understand wen thangs are too late. Sometimes we lose faith in the world because of things that happen to us. Someone once told me you gotta look at the brighter side of things, but wen theres no brighter side to look at where do you look next? i guess u jus look up and have faith u going where your eyes leading you. Sometimes i truely feel lik i should give up but den i rememeber im not a quiter. But what if i jus stop trying??? Am i still considered a quitter i mean im goin gwit the flow and what happens happens right? i guess not, but den that gives u an excuse, but all my life i heard and now its crazy because my cuzzin now has it as her voicemail...

Excuses are tools of the incompetence which build monuments of nothing so there for there are no excuses…

FML

-Aye E

Coolest Halloween custome i ever saw

yo world so ima huge transformers fan lik i love that shit i grew up on dat shit all...now im coolin wit my cuzzin and my lil wudda and he shows me this...

these are some other ones...

notice the trasnformer music in the background lol
ima determined to get heem, and once i get one i promise there will be no one better at transforming then me...ima b able to run and transform in mid air n shit lik the movie n shit lol im determined
My life your entertainment lol
-Aye E

This is Me

Yo world i woke up this morning with a serious feeling of emptiness. I dont kno why but i just dont feel lik nuttins in me. I havent really felt any emtions today lik i cant tell if im in a good mood or bad mood. Dont really feel like doin much either. I havent felt like talkin much either. I asked God for the strength to finish the day. I wana figure out wats my deal but i cant figure it out. And its pissin me off i cant figure it out eitha. Man fuck it guess ima jus blow a L and get my ass ready for work.

-Aye E

Corvette Zr1 2010

Yo world i saw the new corvette and that mafucka is just sick...i mean damn it got up to 205mph on the test track...this vette is jus sick peep the look...but jus lik the great looks it got a great price base price starting at $108,180. Damn if i could live lik the rich folks lol.

gotta get my bread up ya smell me

-Aye E

Sippin life casually

Yo wats gud world i been sittin here thinkin damn im bout to be 20 years old and most people i know my age dont want wat i want. Rite now everybodyi now is either trying get they name out there or tryin be the hottest thang out here. Not me. Im bouta be 20 and im feeling like what ya'll tryin do i did that already, and how long you gon keep doing that someitmes it gets old. I've been goin gto the club and partyin enuff for me, my mans that have passed, you, your friends, and all your dead homies. I been there done that. My name made bitches wet, my name ring bells yall. I'm still getting fucked up evry weekend rite now but it dont gotta be cuz im going to the club or cuz im tryin fuck sumthang...naw dat aint me no more. Karma is a bad bitch and you dont wana fuck wit her. I'm on some shit now where i go to bars, and lounges, i sip causually and enjoy the view. Nuttin new to you. I'm tryin get rich money on my mind so i wana do what th erich people do. Im tryin sail boats and shit sippin on momoasa's (sp). Im tryin take vacations to see sites, and different places in the world. Im tryin learn new things. I love the streets and forever will but fuck the streets, between that and friends they'll get you killed. I want something different right now. I set my eyes on the prize im tryin see the world and all it has to offer. I really relate to street lights by kanye west. I paid my fair, i know my destination, but im jus not there, I wana see the street lights pass me as i see the world, and i dont want to miss a thing so i capture pictures of pure happiness. I love takin gpictures of things. Someday i wana get an old fashion camera with real clear pictures and one i can make the pictures look better with. I'm feeling it, and i know my day is coming i'll be there one day. I'm jus along for the ride until i reach my stop. Sky's the limit never say never and take it one day at a time and youll be fine. Motivation with no hesitation.
-aye E
heres a picture of pure happiness...notice the smile covered by my hand...

Soon you'll understand

Jay z jus one of the illest if you dont understand...being how everybody one the blueprint 3 dick so hard i decided to dip in my stash box and bring out the old jay im talkin reasonable doubt, the dynasty, vol 2, 3, and beyond cds. I hada blow da dust off. Some many songs came back to my head and i couldnt choose which to blog about today but i choose soon you'll undastand...Classic real shit jay z hats off to you brotha...Now time to lite my L and open my ears and enjoy...

-Aye E

Wen being sexy goes wrong lol

never half steping

"Shawty i aint tryin give you da run around, im jus tryin cum get you and run around skip thru a couple towns"

-My love by Juelz Santana ft. Freeway

Today i completed a list of things i want to do before I end my school year at community college.

1. get my dollars straight n pay everythnag off

2.keep my attitude positive and progressive

3. get my life back in God hands

4. Transfer schools to the school of my choice

5. Have an apartment ready to move into before summer

6.get myself back into the gym

Looks lik i got alot on my hands and ima get shit lock down u smell me??

wish me luck and im working towards greatness so eitha get wit it or get rolled over bitches

dueces (walks out the room)

-Aye E has left the building

pondering thought

"We ignore who adore us, adore who ignore us, love who hurt us, and hurt who love us."

-Anonymous

It's crazy as i sit here with this broken fone and listen to an old friend tell me this, she said its true and she saw it in me, and i think back and say yea i could see that. MAd as ever i made it so that she could tell me "i told you so", her famous phrase when it comes to me disagreein wit her n tryin go on my own instincts which can guide ova people better than it can guide myself. But she told me i gotta love myself again. And i plan to...It crazy how your whole motivation can be turned in a matter of seconds, i felt lik i was at my prime and could go no where but up a week ago now i feel lik i lost my edge. Its dumb that i went from dat but i did so now i have to find my happiness and i will. Im gon get back on my bullshit tho...with god wit me who can be against me? right? right!

You gon’ keep pushing me til I reach the ledge

And when I reach the ledge, I tell em all to eat a dick

Take a leap of faith and let my eagle wings spread

Motivation to me, is them telling me what I could not be,

oh well

Im so ambitious, I might hit two sisters,

Hey im on a mission,

no matter what the conditions

Fuck the personal issues, when u go what I been thru,

hey, if you believe it,

then you can conceive it

-Aye E

Also as a side note i forgot to blog about it but this month and for the rest of the month ima be supporting breast cancer by sporting my pink and brown dunks everyday cuz sumeone real close to me has breast cancer...in support ive donated money to reasearch for breast cancer you should support it too jus a thought!

Catch up...

Yo so im feelin alil better den da past couple days but still not good but at least im still breathin right??? My mind really wonderin rite now somewhere around pluto, maybe orbitting juipter maybe...it hurts lik fuck no bull and im learnin i cant drink or smoke the pain away but lik broadway the show must go on because the audience is clapping so the star of this movie will end with a standing ovation (sp) during the ending credits. Cant say i aint got anythang cuz i got myself and a bag of dreams, and a check list of accomplishments call me santa clause bitch cuz im checkin it twice ya smell me???
oh yea song on my mind dat i'm feelin but aye remember me...
Under by pleasure p (no homo)

-aye E

man keep ya head up...

Humpty Dumpty

Yo world so this post will be a more personal post. Maybe some of yall will feel me and maybe not but it's sumthing to think about. what do you do wen you put all your eggs in one basket. I know dey tell you not to but reguardless you do it anyway? Everythang you could possibly put into this basket you would/did. But if your baskets drops and all your eggs break whose fault is it??? Wat if the handle broke on ur basket, what if it slipped out your hand, jus wat if...Will you be mad at yourself for not being more careful or mad at the basket for not doin what you wanted it to do??? but can you fault the basket, again it did what it was supposed to according to the laws of physics but also it did as much as it could. And after it broke would you trust that basket again, or would you trust any baskets, would you use another basket???

For those of you who couldn't see the picture im painting im talkin bout relationships...

Now for as long as i can remember i've always had a hate/love feeling toward relationships because when i was young i wasnt attractive, i still dont think i am now but whatever, but i use to hate relationships cuz my roaster was never stacked but once i lost my weight and my name started getting out my luck wit ladies went up i had my share and i did bam out and i got bammed out on a lot to but ive learned my fair share of lessons. I've had my heart captured a couple times actually 4 to be exact. I can name them all each one different from the other but not all the same. I was particulary captured by one and not jus because it was my most recent but because it was very different. I could see myself and her in alot sumtimes in movies i've seen, pictures i've seen, etc. Now i love the fact that in a relationship theres alwasy that companionship, or that wen you need someone they're always somewhere around. And i mean the entertainment and memories but now even though my heart feels lik humpty dumpty but i guess it understandable, and again who am i to judge. To each his or her own i guess. People have to do for themselves, cuz you cant always do for someone else. Although the feelings arent mutual anymore and i know since your leaving now i know dey wont be back as much as you think later down the line somehow deyll magically cum back i know dey wont and maybe thats what makes it hurt more. But you charge it to the game and keep your reciept. Win some you lose some. Jus let an unfair tear fall...

The Game Aye E

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-Aye E

Eyes of the beholder

YO so as all of you know i dont post everyday. I dont post everyday because i need a reason to blog. but heres wat this post is about...

Realization (or when it all falls down)

So while im livin life i learn alot from day to day and i learn more and more about myself everyday. The past couple of days i've learned that people panic when it all comes crashing down. when people are in a bad place they dont know what to do anymore and all their energy turns negative. Some people can stay calm and patient, others cant. Some people just dont worry about it and are care free...now me...i panic but i try to keep it to myself cuz if you cause a scene it will make things worse, then i try to look and find a positive out of the negatives and try not to worry about the negatives until i have found a solution. Then i execute and solve my problems. Everyday i fight with demons, rumors, fakes, and haters. Can i just say...

"thank you thank you thank you your far to kind hold your applause this your blog not mine"

I jus wana thank all of you for keeping me going, also i wana thank the experiences i've been thru and obstacles ive hurlded ova. Please know im unstoppable so understand it's not your fault you cant break me just try your luck on da next guy... but im really high really really high tonight i'll tip you $100 to keep the ice cold alright? Someone told em the other day dat you can see alot about me in my eyes. She said its crazy i can see your soul i see all your pain, joy, anger, i can see your childhood pretty much our childhood lol insider...my bad back on topic tho but hey dats my nigga and i kno i can trust her especially with the kinkes that have been thrown in my life recently but believe me i wont let you down grandaddy, i know you lookin down proud of all of us. You walk with me everyday and i know you do so im good, my guardian angel right??? yea you are i know God put me in your hands all my life so why wouldnt he let you finish your job...i love you...

now excuse me i gotta write a letter so my problems can read it.

Dear problems,

I know you've tried your best to break me, but i have to admitt you doin pretty good but right now im stronger than ever and strong willed. Im destined for greatness and i wana thank you in advance for helping me get there one day. Keep up the good work though cuz im learning alot. Im ambitious bayboy's and baygurl's...

Thank you

-Aye E

Gucci Mane ft Plies-Wasted

Dis song rite here nigga dis song rite here nigga...lol
Dis song is the truth rite here mafuckas be getin wasted while i post this im rollin up now lol...

-aye E

chasing the jones'

Warning:

A Crucial Venting

Session Approaching

So this morning after completely being irratated, fustrated, and thinkin bout how everybody else has shit handed to em on a silver platter, i mean dont get me wrong lik i never recieved anything from anybody but wen sum1 did give me sumthang i earned it. I'm really big on not owein anybody nuffin cuz i feel lik im a man n i shuldnt really have to rely on ppl for shit. The one thing that makes a man a man is him being able to do for himself. He needs to establish those morals and goals in his head early...He needs to kno what his 5-10yr plan is, but he doesnt have to necessarily know how to get there.People are way to busy thinkin bout how can they stay in people's eye's. They need the latest clothes, they need the bling bloaw bur, they need to have the nice car, they have to money to blow, they gotta have it up every weekend, they jus gotta do shit to keep up with the jones'. Kanye said it best...you worry bout the wrong things. It's crazy cuz i was on dat shit hard as fuck, harder den alot of niggas out here i use to think what you wore made who u r in society, if you wasnt in da club evry friday saturday n sunday you was a square. I bet most people wont kno that most of my name brand shit now is from a long time ago. I really am a discount shopper now, i shop at thirft stores, and i wear what i lik whether its new, old, ugly to you, whatever, you aint got to wear it, who gives a fuck what your wearing, people on dat michael jackson shit, no disrespect and rip lik i love mike but jus cuz u missed a piece of life dont mean later down da line you needa do it. God dont make mistakes, if you missed it you missed it for a reason. People wana be out and about all da time but dey aint got da money to be out and about. People let others dictate to them what they're supposed to like. Its fuckin bonkers to me and baffles me. I really am glad im lettin myself live life how i see fit. I make moves off what i want and can do. I dont need anybody tellin me whats cool, whats the best thing, etc. theres an old saying that "you can lead a horse to water but you cant make him drink it". Real live nigga shit. People are scared to be made fun of, guess what even with your nice clothes, fancy cars, n money, people still talk shit, look at celebrities, would you really want mafuckas takin your picture and new rumors every week??? I said in a past post dat mafuckas was stuck on dis beginner page and i meant it. The thing i was thinkiin bout was how people down me for smokin. I jus wana put this out there is Canada at war??? is amsterdam at war??? Naw dey not but weed is legal over there, in fuckin Canada havent you heard you can leave your house and leave the fuckin front door unlocked. Tryin doin dat shit round here, you minds well leave a sign on the door "hey robbers i left the door open so itll be easier to steal all my shit and jus park your truck on my front yard so you wont have to move so far." Are they havin money problems??? NAw cuz mafucka are chilled the fuck out over there. People can always talk about what you doin wrong but wen it comes to them all a sudden you real fuckin quite. The inspirition that keeps me going these days comes from 3people, my mom, my cousin, and SS. I can give a reason why i wish i could be all three of them combined and heres why...

My ma is jus pandoras box of information and inspirition she did everythang for me and even when i came around (born) she did what she hada do to make sure i was good. She made sure i undastand that in this life no one gives u anything and if dey do u dont want 2 owe dem anythang, she is starting her own business and in school again tryin to get her master's. I can always appreciate the fact that she still tries to learn even wen she has the minium (sp) she goes above and beyond and from her i strive to follow in her footsteps of strving for more and earning more then what you need so your field of options can be wide and vast. Even though me and my ma have differences and we dont always see eye to eye, i look up to her the most out of anyone cuz she made it, She showed yall how to do this son!!! Next from my cuzzin she has been through a harder life then me but at the same time she still handled her business and is following her dream of music. And that shit is dope not only is she doing that she still in school getting her degree and working and living by herself. From her i learn and strive to follow my dreams and despite what people think or say do what you want to do. You'll be way happier in the long run, and from her i got my real second wind and got my shit together and maya i couldnt thank you enough for really talkin to me and actually sitting me down and really talkin to me on sum real shit. I love you fareal cuzzo and as goes for you, you know aint nobody gon do shit to me and u kno im here for you always and forever. From her, how to keep goin when life has you down, even though life is a struggle to get out of bed and handle the business you need to get done. Had a baby went to community college left dat got into a four yr institution and still takin care of a baby full time. wow. Can i have some of your strength to keep goin you got enuff to pass around dont you??? lol All of these people show me everday that youcant stop going because your chips are down. Now i jus finished reading a friend of mine blog about life, and it was the realist post i seen from anyone else in a long time. you people reading this should read dat...heres the link...

http://elle202.blogspot.com/2009/10/no-matter-issue.html

What i took from the bpost was people arent people anymore. We live in a world of animals and robots. Leme explain this, i say this because people have become animals through greed, hatered, and lust. Even though scientifically they are called humans they are animals, because who could walk up and kill sum1 because of where they from, cuz you talk to my x, etc. only animals kill for stupid reason, the same animal who has kids and dont take care of none of em, the same person who mooches off sum1 else with no intention of giving back or helping them back when they need it. Its jus lik in the animal kingdom everybody for themself. Only animals can turn dey back on another animal and only animals want to hurt humans. Which is sad because people are mammals but were not supposed to be animals. Now as for the robots those are the people who take in everythang that the government, strangers, teachers, etc and take it literally. People are entitled to your opinion, so fuckin use it. I cant stadn people who arent registered to vote by choice who complain about shit, if you aint give them your two cents den wtf you complainin about now, you aint giv a fuck den so y all of a sudden you do now??? Reguardless of what people tell you u have to do your own research and make ur own decesions, bout how you should feel, how you want to do things, etc. It fareal kills me wen people tell you ur doing sumthang wrong. You people wana act like animals until you cant hang, u wana dog people out and be judgemental about shit but wen niggas rob ur shit lik animals all of a sudden you talkin bout wat kinda people would do that. While dey askin what kinda people would hold sum1 down when they made mistakes. "people" and i use this term very loosly dont respect each over. And i almost forgot theres one more type of person, and thats a real nigga. A real nigga gon let you know whats ups whether it be good or bad, mafuckas is way too sensative these days, mafuckas bitch moan n cry but when sumbody try tell dey ass something dey get mad and dont wana hear it...see in this day and age real niggas is livin with animals [snakes] and robots [government officals, students, etc.], and the world aint ready for real niggas and probably never will be...now out of all these types of people which one are you...

and in the end i hope everbody slows down and doesnt compromise their destiny because you never know what you can achieve by not trying...

-Aye E (a real nigga)

i encourage you all to post your thoughts and feelings on this post seriously...come real or dont come at all